Guhh.
I really don't what to say....tommorow or today since its 4 in the morning i guess is one of those days where i made plans but forgot with who and end up doing something else anyway. I really need to start socializing..... i think soon im going to be traveling a long the town maybe like cjs, bowling, movies, shows, clubs ( i dont know what kind though ) just something where i can socialize more and i just need to have a life cuz i do have one...but somedays i feel like i dont when there is nothing to do and everyone else is gone...i think i just should usually have something to do...not always but just a lot more of the time than i do....and i know i have been all anti-drink and all that stuff but im starting to think that im not going to be anti-this and anti-that but i dont think im going to plan things or get into heavy doing anything.
Also: i find it so amusing how i dont talk when i should i cant think of the things that i should say when i know somewhere i have them...i just really need to get somethings straight.........im just boring the world.............i really need to become myself again cuz all this zombie-fied brain of mine is really starting to scare me...it always seems that i have so much to say when im not around people and when im put in the spot of actually doing stuff with people i have nothing to say at all and have no ideas for anything does anybody no why i do this?
Also: i find it so amusing how i dont talk when i should i cant think of the things that i should say when i know somewhere i have them...i just really need to get somethings straight.........im just boring the world.............i really need to become myself again cuz all this zombie-fied brain of mine is really starting to scare me...it always seems that i have so much to say when im not around people and when im put in the spot of actually doing stuff with people i have nothing to say at all and have no ideas for anything does anybody no why i do this?