Boy
I keep telling myself not to get interested....but it's not working. Every day, more and more. It just seems like it could be great! I mean, his personality is just amazing. He's so sweet and innocent and kind. We have so much in common. He makes me happy. I always smile when he's around. And he's Catholic! I've finally found a good Catholic boy. But I can't have him. I guess I'm stuck in the "friend zone" with him. He's hung up on his other friend from high school. So I'm out of the picture. But sometimes I wish. Sometimes I just want to tell him. Just so he knows. I don't care if I get something out of it or not. But I don't want to tell him because I think he'd end up being weird around me. I just wish I could read minds. I wish I could know if he's even just considered the idea. But oh well. It's cool. I'm happy no matter what.
(Did you get that? I'm happy no matter what. Awesome, right?!)
Oh yeah, because I'm only taking 3 hours, I can't go to the health center for anti-depressants and I can't go to the counseling center anymore. Whoo!
But it's ok I think. Because I'm really getting better. I pretty much feel like my old self again. Yeah, I've still got a lot of stuff hidden from my parents and I'm still trying to fix everything I messed up, but I'm generally happy now. And that is the best thing in the world.
I wish I could have Boy. Maybe he's just too good for me. It would just be really nice. But I know I can't have everything I want. And to be honest, I don't think my roommates are too into the idea of me and him. That's ok I guess. I mean, if they really have a problem with it, then I'll listen to them. Because I know friends most of the time are a better judge of that stuff than you are. Good to have outside opinions. I just really like boy. He makes me happy. :)
(Did you get that? I'm happy no matter what. Awesome, right?!)
Oh yeah, because I'm only taking 3 hours, I can't go to the health center for anti-depressants and I can't go to the counseling center anymore. Whoo!
But it's ok I think. Because I'm really getting better. I pretty much feel like my old self again. Yeah, I've still got a lot of stuff hidden from my parents and I'm still trying to fix everything I messed up, but I'm generally happy now. And that is the best thing in the world.
I wish I could have Boy. Maybe he's just too good for me. It would just be really nice. But I know I can't have everything I want. And to be honest, I don't think my roommates are too into the idea of me and him. That's ok I guess. I mean, if they really have a problem with it, then I'll listen to them. Because I know friends most of the time are a better judge of that stuff than you are. Good to have outside opinions. I just really like boy. He makes me happy. :)