blood, tears, and panic attacks.erratickelsieJune 30 2003, 01:56:01 UTC
correction: they are going out. and they started 4 days ago and i'm a big dumb idiot. and theyr'e fucking. or they have, atleast. i would say sex, but its not even that. theyr'e just whores. andialmostkilledmyselfbecauseijustcanthandleallofthat...and i just found out like 2 hours ago. ijustneedsomeonetoholdmeandpretendlikerealityisgone.will you be my new best friend? i mean, do you need one since the jaci thing? i dont know. atleast they got your permission. atleast alot of things. man.
i dont know, maybe we really are on the same page. i dont know if you sacrificed as much for steven as i did for caleb, or if ya'll loved each other and spent as much time with each other as we did, but it used to be beautiful man. and i dont know how bent out of shape you were before that happend to you, either. you know, i dont know alot of things. but yeah, i'm already like, in one of the crappiest times ever, (despitemyknackforpretendinglikeeverythingisokay) and i don't know. i'm just scared and lonely and i just want to talk and talk and ramble and ramble. because shes been my best friend for 5 years. and I FEEL LIKE THE MOST BETRAYED PERSON IN THE WORLD RIGHT NOW but i'm thinking that you know, theres a possibility you could be feeling close to this. but then again, i dont think your'e as senile as me.
and i dont know. the sad thing is that i'd go out with him again if i thought he'd love me forever.
man, i'm too emotional to write comments. i really should go to sleep. man but i dont have anyone to talk to. and i really shouldnt talk to strangers because im being really irrational.
(k)
p.s., hello world, how do you like me when i overexpose myself? *blushes*
Re: blood, tears, and panic attacks.evilbunniJune 30 2003, 17:24:00 UTC
Of course ill be your best friend. Kels you know i live right down the road if you ever need anything ill pick you up.. you can come swimming and stuff and stay over here. Jaci and i are still friends.. im just not sure how i feel about anything anymore.
i dont know, maybe we really are on the same page. i dont know if you sacrificed as much for steven as i did for caleb, or if ya'll loved each other and spent as much time with each other as we did, but it used to be beautiful man. and i dont know how bent out of shape you were before that happend to you, either. you know, i dont know alot of things. but yeah, i'm already like, in one of the crappiest times ever, (despitemyknackforpretendinglikeeverythingisokay) and i don't know. i'm just scared and lonely and i just want to talk and talk and ramble and ramble. because shes been my best friend for 5 years. and I FEEL LIKE THE MOST BETRAYED PERSON IN THE WORLD RIGHT NOW but i'm thinking that you know, theres a possibility you could be feeling close to this. but then again, i dont think your'e as senile as me.
and i dont know. the sad thing is that i'd go out with him again if i thought he'd love me forever.
man, i'm too emotional to write comments. i really should go to sleep. man but i dont have anyone to talk to. and i really shouldnt talk to strangers because im being really irrational.
(k)
p.s., hello world, how do you like me when i overexpose myself? *blushes*
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