emotional "topple" game...
Just catching up on the past hurts...
Sucks how I seem to be stuck in the past...
Not much but painful memories...
"If we don't learn from the past we're doomed to repeating it"
Untitled
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I stare into the abyss,
It eats at my very soul.
All the demons from my past,
Slowly consuming me whole.
My feelings slowly dying,
With every tick of the clock.
Feel like there's no where to run,
All blocked in by cage and lock.
And I fear for my future,
Losing the light in my life.
I'm losing touch with the girl,
That I do need to be my wife.
I just keep dragging her down,
Afraid of my looming fate.
The day that I make her leave,
The night that it's all too late.
So I just wait for the worst,
All the things that I fear most.
Fear tares at me with each breath,
Dine with this demonic host.
--- --- ---
Going to have another poem tonight... if more then only one won't be depressing I'm guessing...
Right now I'm just...
Afraid?
--- --- ---
My fears are growing nightly
You'd be suprised at it all
Fate seems like she's such a bitch
Always seems to tare me down
These thoughts are slowly burning
Emotions broken in half
--- --- ---
Just worried...scared...broken...
"up smack...turn around he's on his back..."
"my heart's been broken so finely that each piece can be passed through the eye of a needle..."
:: sighs ::
I'm so afraid of losing her...
Off to david's around 5ish...
I don't know what to do...
It feels like if I so much as breath wrong she's gone...
This is my last attempt to date...
If dating a girl I've known for eight years doesn't work...
nothing will... ever...
Uber long post..eck...
"We'll forget the past... Maybe I'm not able..."
"She says love is for fools who fall behind"
Why?
She's here now...
But I feel so afraid...
I have her so close...
But she still feels so far away...
I can feel the softness of her skin...
And each beat of her heart...
But it's like her soul is somewhere else...
I feel like there's something horribly wrong...
Something's just not adding up...
Or is it me...?
I think it might just be me...
I feel so flawed...
I feel so...
Damned...
Broken...
Dead...
Frozen...
Lead...
I don't think I'll survive losing her again...
Sucks how I seem to be stuck in the past...
Not much but painful memories...
"If we don't learn from the past we're doomed to repeating it"
Untitled
--- --- ---
I stare into the abyss,
It eats at my very soul.
All the demons from my past,
Slowly consuming me whole.
My feelings slowly dying,
With every tick of the clock.
Feel like there's no where to run,
All blocked in by cage and lock.
And I fear for my future,
Losing the light in my life.
I'm losing touch with the girl,
That I do need to be my wife.
I just keep dragging her down,
Afraid of my looming fate.
The day that I make her leave,
The night that it's all too late.
So I just wait for the worst,
All the things that I fear most.
Fear tares at me with each breath,
Dine with this demonic host.
--- --- ---
Going to have another poem tonight... if more then only one won't be depressing I'm guessing...
Right now I'm just...
Afraid?
--- --- ---
My fears are growing nightly
You'd be suprised at it all
Fate seems like she's such a bitch
Always seems to tare me down
These thoughts are slowly burning
Emotions broken in half
--- --- ---
Just worried...scared...broken...
"up smack...turn around he's on his back..."
"my heart's been broken so finely that each piece can be passed through the eye of a needle..."
:: sighs ::
I'm so afraid of losing her...
Off to david's around 5ish...
I don't know what to do...
It feels like if I so much as breath wrong she's gone...
This is my last attempt to date...
If dating a girl I've known for eight years doesn't work...
nothing will... ever...
Uber long post..eck...
"We'll forget the past... Maybe I'm not able..."
"She says love is for fools who fall behind"
Why?
She's here now...
But I feel so afraid...
I have her so close...
But she still feels so far away...
I can feel the softness of her skin...
And each beat of her heart...
But it's like her soul is somewhere else...
I feel like there's something horribly wrong...
Something's just not adding up...
Or is it me...?
I think it might just be me...
I feel so flawed...
I feel so...
Damned...
Broken...
Dead...
Frozen...
Lead...
I don't think I'll survive losing her again...