yeah update before reading any crap other then piper's LJ
yeah I'm sick..but I'm getting better...confusing post for right now cause I'm pretty much kinda outa it... but hey cool...
my aura thingie is..green...?
e> perspective born from the days of stacey...when I could never do anything right and this little voice always told me how horrible I am and is all cynical and all that nice stuff...
c> this perpective is mine..I think..my raitonal self...
s> he last persepective was the coping mechanism to "e" designed to kep myself from taking a knife and gutting myself like a fish...
the three veiws of how piper has impacted my life thus far...
E> She's a nice girl, yeah ok... now think about it Cody... how bad is it going to hurt this time when she's gone and happy with some one else leaving you behind? Remember the last time? You were locked up in the nut house... yeah things may be great now... yeah, what are you going to do to make her hate you...? you know you'll do it... One of these days you're going to fuck up... you're going to push her away... you'll say or do something and ruin it all... fuck you Cody... heh... do what ever you want... you're still going to lose her... it's all a matter of what you did to push her away... She gets depressd and you can't do shit for her... hell... she'd be better off if you were just to fucking keel over and die... you're dragging her down... you make her miserable
C> She's great... I mean she's everything I ever wanted... I just wish I could keep her from being sad... I love her to death... I love everything about her... Almost... I wish she wasn't so self critical... I just have to be patiant I guess... wait for her meds and what not... I think she looks fine tho she's complaining that she's fat... I don't really think she is... I'm starting to pump her full of viamins/minerals/shtuff because she's choosing to stop eating for an indeterminable amount of time... that and her trends on getting sick... I just wish she'd believe how beautiful I think she is... I could say it in any language in the world... spell it out in blood even... yet she wouldn't believe me... it kinda hurts really... but eh... oh well... I just need to be patiant with her... she needs help, I have to understand that...
S> Oh hell yeah she's great you better damn believe that Cody or I'll smack ya with a 2x4! joking!!! ^.^ She's different... I like her... She's a 13 short of a dozen but hey! It's all good right? She's furry... heh heh heh... So damned cute! She's like a big ol' teddy wolf... makes ya just wanna give her a kung fu death grip bear hug ya know? Well maybe not big ol'... More like munchkien woovie of doom! Now if she'd only get a self esteem boost the lil bitch... Always stuck in the mud at night... How dare she! She needs to learn a good ol' motto... fuck what ever it was..went kinda like... "fuck off everyone...ya don't live forever so do what ever the fuck ya want as long as it dun hurt nobody..." Yeah...Usless ramblings!!! muffins...heh... O.o
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wait for it...
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MUFFIN MUFFIN MUFFIN!!!
heh heh heh...
Oh Piper? She's a dear... A little... uptight? But hey...if she gets past that she'd be one damn cool person... And don't listen to "E" you know she loves you with all her heart...Fuckin' Yoda-ness... You're treating her right...now do her good ^.^ and treat her like you'd treat the love of your life... Fuck! She's you're soul mate I promise....!!!!
Uhm...yeah...my ramblings..rants and uhm..leting the voices in my head talk freely about how the feel about a piper at the moment?
Yeah... sleepy...so sleepy...
I wonder what I did to upset Piper this time..?
my aura thingie is..green...?
e> perspective born from the days of stacey...when I could never do anything right and this little voice always told me how horrible I am and is all cynical and all that nice stuff...
c> this perpective is mine..I think..my raitonal self...
s> he last persepective was the coping mechanism to "e" designed to kep myself from taking a knife and gutting myself like a fish...
the three veiws of how piper has impacted my life thus far...
E> She's a nice girl, yeah ok... now think about it Cody... how bad is it going to hurt this time when she's gone and happy with some one else leaving you behind? Remember the last time? You were locked up in the nut house... yeah things may be great now... yeah, what are you going to do to make her hate you...? you know you'll do it... One of these days you're going to fuck up... you're going to push her away... you'll say or do something and ruin it all... fuck you Cody... heh... do what ever you want... you're still going to lose her... it's all a matter of what you did to push her away... She gets depressd and you can't do shit for her... hell... she'd be better off if you were just to fucking keel over and die... you're dragging her down... you make her miserable
C> She's great... I mean she's everything I ever wanted... I just wish I could keep her from being sad... I love her to death... I love everything about her... Almost... I wish she wasn't so self critical... I just have to be patiant I guess... wait for her meds and what not... I think she looks fine tho she's complaining that she's fat... I don't really think she is... I'm starting to pump her full of viamins/minerals/shtuff because she's choosing to stop eating for an indeterminable amount of time... that and her trends on getting sick... I just wish she'd believe how beautiful I think she is... I could say it in any language in the world... spell it out in blood even... yet she wouldn't believe me... it kinda hurts really... but eh... oh well... I just need to be patiant with her... she needs help, I have to understand that...
S> Oh hell yeah she's great you better damn believe that Cody or I'll smack ya with a 2x4! joking!!! ^.^ She's different... I like her... She's a 13 short of a dozen but hey! It's all good right? She's furry... heh heh heh... So damned cute! She's like a big ol' teddy wolf... makes ya just wanna give her a kung fu death grip bear hug ya know? Well maybe not big ol'... More like munchkien woovie of doom! Now if she'd only get a self esteem boost the lil bitch... Always stuck in the mud at night... How dare she! She needs to learn a good ol' motto... fuck what ever it was..went kinda like... "fuck off everyone...ya don't live forever so do what ever the fuck ya want as long as it dun hurt nobody..." Yeah...Usless ramblings!!! muffins...heh... O.o
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wait for it...
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MUFFIN MUFFIN MUFFIN!!!
heh heh heh...
Oh Piper? She's a dear... A little... uptight? But hey...if she gets past that she'd be one damn cool person... And don't listen to "E" you know she loves you with all her heart...Fuckin' Yoda-ness... You're treating her right...now do her good ^.^ and treat her like you'd treat the love of your life... Fuck! She's you're soul mate I promise....!!!!
Uhm...yeah...my ramblings..rants and uhm..leting the voices in my head talk freely about how the feel about a piper at the moment?
Yeah... sleepy...so sleepy...
I wonder what I did to upset Piper this time..?