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Ugh.
I was going to write about other stuff, but I ended up buying a wedding gift for my cousin instead. He's.. man, I don't know, 20? Younger than KT. His fiancee is a year younger than him. So, went to BB&B, bought some shit they could actually use because no one else on the reg is going to buy it for them, and shipped that shit off.
And for some dumb reason, I decided to google her name. I think because I wanted to see if I could find more about her besides random bits on Facebook. I end up finding her wordpress blog about her love for God, and handing out tracks at the pride parade and how homos are going to go down for their sins.
The first thing that hits me is just the sadness at the hate. The belief behind it all, and it hits that special sweet spot in me of being aware of Great Wrong in the world. How can my god hate me and love you? There's plenty of love to go around, it doesn't get used up. Then my brain goes to the snarkiest wedding card notes I could ever write. I won't post them. But... there's several.
Then it goes to worldview... I think to myself, "Please don't propagate this. Don't make someone else hate themselves, or be afraid of who they are, or kill themselves because they don't feel they can be accepted." It took me a decent amount of time to figure it out. Some take their whole lives to figure it out. Don't add to that by projecting out hate. Love, understand, feel for others. Send that out.
In the end, I hope their wedding turns out great, and they're married for like a billion zillion years. I guess she got pregnant, supposedly, thus wedding. I hope that for as many people come to circle around them on their day that someone else who is struggling with their own sexuality, or beliefs, or life, that a circle forms around them to support as well. That maybe if we form enough circles, if we can all choose to be part of a circle of support... we can strong.
I was going to write about other stuff, but I ended up buying a wedding gift for my cousin instead. He's.. man, I don't know, 20? Younger than KT. His fiancee is a year younger than him. So, went to BB&B, bought some shit they could actually use because no one else on the reg is going to buy it for them, and shipped that shit off.
And for some dumb reason, I decided to google her name. I think because I wanted to see if I could find more about her besides random bits on Facebook. I end up finding her wordpress blog about her love for God, and handing out tracks at the pride parade and how homos are going to go down for their sins.
The first thing that hits me is just the sadness at the hate. The belief behind it all, and it hits that special sweet spot in me of being aware of Great Wrong in the world. How can my god hate me and love you? There's plenty of love to go around, it doesn't get used up. Then my brain goes to the snarkiest wedding card notes I could ever write. I won't post them. But... there's several.
Then it goes to worldview... I think to myself, "Please don't propagate this. Don't make someone else hate themselves, or be afraid of who they are, or kill themselves because they don't feel they can be accepted." It took me a decent amount of time to figure it out. Some take their whole lives to figure it out. Don't add to that by projecting out hate. Love, understand, feel for others. Send that out.
In the end, I hope their wedding turns out great, and they're married for like a billion zillion years. I guess she got pregnant, supposedly, thus wedding. I hope that for as many people come to circle around them on their day that someone else who is struggling with their own sexuality, or beliefs, or life, that a circle forms around them to support as well. That maybe if we form enough circles, if we can all choose to be part of a circle of support... we can strong.