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[evil_whimsey]

Hm, was digging through old journals last night (until waaay too late), and I'd totally forgotten about all these little Bootcamp snippets I'd hoarded. Thought I might do something with them eventually, but all the burners on my stove are overfull as it is.

So.

1. Fullmetal Alchemist, Ed/Roy

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Re: glee!

[evil_whimsey]

Oh yeah, I think I mighta pestered you with emails of some of the outtakes. I'm not sure the Ed/Roy one was part of that other brewing story, where Ed is at loose ends after he fixes Al. It struck me as something darker, but who knows. I had all these interesting fragments for that thing, but ironing it all out and doing the necessary knitting to make a real narrative out of it just strikes me as entirely too much trouble. I learned my lesson with that damn Hunny/Kaoru Autumn Dusk thing, which was made all out of bitty fragments and months of fucking horrible nitpicky noodling & torture. blegh.

That Hunny/Kaoru bit was meant to go in the....what did I call it? That Ouran crisis thing, where Kaoru and Hunny are sort of fiddling while Rome burns, or something. There are bunches of snippets of that, but everything I do wants to be a whole universe, and I have to accept that I just don't have that kind of time. Which is why I don't often go back through old sketches like this too often, it makes me sad because I see all the stuff I have to drop and weed out, but there are these little bits like the one posted above which I really love, these small moments where I found I'd said exactly what I wanted to, where Kaoru's confusion and his struggle to understand himself in the world resonates so well (now that I have a couple years of distance from it).

I guess what I'm saying, is that moments like that Ouran snippet, that's why I do this. That's why I write, to get those character thoughts down like that. To set them loose and see them turn the world over in their hands, and discover something universally human, in their own words.

And maybe bits like that will end up recycled and refined into other stories, because I am lately realizing that there are people out there in the world who need to see something they can identify with. I've always taken to books for total escape into other worlds, and always imagined myself writing the ideal stories I can't find anywhere. But lately, the universe keeps throwing these indicators at me, regarding people who live in this world, who are so marginalized that they believe themselves completely alone, who might actually find something to help them go on living, if they could just see that there are others like them; people who need the same things they do, and value the same things they do.

Even if it's just in the form of a fictional character, it could help those people know they're not alone, or broken, or wrong. That it is possible to be yourself, and still be a good person who is valued by others.

Hm. I dunno, maybe something good could happen out of the random scribbling. At any rate, I'm so happy these pleased you, thank you thank you for the commentses!