What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die
You're lying to yourself again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it, put it on the faultline
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
Over this. Why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess. I don't want to watch you.
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I haven't posted in a long time. Too busy. Too much work to do so. It's now my last week of work (I finish tomorrow thank gawd) and we're done everything we have to do. People keep finding us odd jobs and maybe 2-3 times throughout the day we're given something to go bring to another office or type up spread sheets on excel. Whooo. That takes all of 5 minutes. So bottom line here is that I have time to actually post. Placed in an LJ cut to be user friendly and read what you want :)
I'm in the stages of bleaching my hair. Currently I'm at the orange stage and this weekend it goes white (not my entire head) Then after all this tiresome work (maybe next week or when I get to ottawa) I shall put in pink. I remember why I stopped doing this in the first place - too much work and money. Anyway, I'm excited about it and am hoping itll turn out awesome-like-whoa.
I finished my course FINALLY on Tuesday night at 7pm exactly and needless to say I'm a little relieved. That stress is gone, however I'm anticipating second year to be quite the stressful year for me. MEH! I'll be glad to not have to balance school and work that's for sure. I think I'm falling into my oh-so-repeated depresso emotions. I don't really care about anything anymore and don't feel like doing anything about it. People tell me things and I get mad, but then just tell myself "whats the fucking point". Maybe it'll pass when I get back into Ottawa. I just wanna leave everything.
On a happier note I'm seeing Muffin saturday for the Renaissance Festival and we're hanging out all day (much needed Jen/Muffin Time). Then Sunday Muffin is coming to stay over Sunday night so we can go for a trip up to Ottawa Monday morning to take Fielding to his Police Foundations Fitness Test and take up a few of his things to sign him into residence. While this is going on Tuesday morning, Muffin and I will hang out at our places and maybe clean my place up a little (that means you Muffin). We're leaving Tuesday night and by Saturday next week I will again venture to Ottawa for good (whether this is a good thing or not I am yet to know).
I just found out I don't have a phone for this upcoming year. Fan-freaking-tastic. Just when I thought things were going well, they're not. I don't know what to do because I don't think I'll have the money to sustain a phoneline myself let alone a cell phone. Cell phone Basement apartment = I know in my house it never seemed to work and in order to get a cell phone that would actually work under those conditions I would have to shell out a lot of money. Money Jen = fantasy land. It just isn't adding up. Along with this bullshit Carleton sucks ass and contemplation of transfering next year are high. It's bullshit when you can't get into a course of choice because Carleton decided that it was best to let in 90 people out of the thousands in that fucking major. You rule Carleton. Way to be. I should have taken the sports car and one way ticket to U of T when I had the chance. Why I screwed myself over by going to Ottawa? I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE. Needless to say I was finally able to transfer into ONE course I actually planned for in the end and my schedule still sucks...BUT WHATEVER! I'm off Thursdays and Fridays (not all bad).
I'm missing a lot of people from Ottawa, but it'll be interesting to see how many people actually lose touch starting September. One of those things where people say "we'll hang out all the time" reminds me of when leaving high school so many friends said that on our trip away to college or university and I have yet to see them again. Most of that had no loss that followed though.
Also, as stupid as this may come off I got a new LJ. I don't have a layout or anything written in it yet, as I am waiting for Fielding to finish the one he's making me. But for anyone who cares my new LJ is: KittenxFace . It'll be FRIENDS ONLY. So if you don't add me, whatever :)
On a brighter note though, Patrick Boot says he misses Sandra and I and is thinking about us. Patrick US = LOVE FOREVER and GOOD TIMES. We probably wont hang out his first night down in Ottawa, but for sure right after that for the much anticipated Family Guy Marathon. The Tuesday after we arrive Muffin is also coming over for a Slumber Party. NOTE TO JORDAN: THAT MEANS YOU MUST BE THERE AND THIS TIME NO CAR RIDING (I promise) YOU TOO EMILY!!! Cause we haven't seen you in so long!- I propose there must be a watching of Dirty Dancing and the Princess Bride in order to break in the new place :)
Well that's all I guess, there might be more posts from me to come - we'll see. ♥
I ♥ my STRIPEY PINK SHIRT!
^ Me in Icon form as created by Fielding. I'm so adorable there, WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED IN REALITY?!