Okay..
at work, doing jack shit. 1pm... only two more hours to go.
resisting the temptation to order from Galetto's for lunch.
Galettos=so incredibly good..
reading old entries, because lets face it-- there's nothing really else to do online. and i am EXTREMELY bored.
anyways, i got this sense from them that either:
a) i am a complete loser now, more so than i was one year ago, and/or:
b) i was definitely without a doubt thisclose to personally figuring out the meaning of life.
i am totally serious. read old shit if you don't believe me.
might be seeing angela today-- and i say that tenatively, because truthfully whenever we make plans they never seem to work out, and i always end up feeling like an asshole. last thurs (or wed?) we were supposed to see eachother (yeah wed) but i ended up having shitloads of errands to do. well anyways, i do miss her shitloads and i definitely DO want to see her.
so i hope today works out. i need some time with her.
and i'm afraid that if i get it, i might just break down.
i spent an hour today looking up hotels/motels on the cape, made myself all excited, started daydreaming about vacationing (even if it is for only 3 days!) with my michael, and toni and mat like last year. then i realized that i was sitting in a perfume store, came back down to earth, and bleh goes from there.
MAINE is NEXT FRIDAY.
NEXT FUCKING FRIDAY.
you'd think that by now after about six years of this i would be able to anticipate transition (at the very least!) better than ever, but no.
not even close.
the only thing that i've gotten used to is the reality of it.
honestly, though, it's not so bad when i'm up and getting into the swing of things, partly i think because of the fact that i have a)a job and b)a car.
ummm.. last year i went fucking nuts and started thinking that i was some kind of princess with endless amounts of money who could prance around whenever and to wherever she pleased. well, by september 10, princess had about $30 in her bank account.
NOTE TO SELF: try to stay, like, on earth this year, please???
hm.
anything else to write?
probably not..nothing that I can think about right now.
yeah i'd say that right now i'm just normal.
i need a cigarette and i'm pretty hungry, but normal.
hm.
aalllritteeee a-hoooles (but i love yaa!) im out.. leave comments if ANYONE even USES this thing anymore??
...man that was a long-ass first-entry-in-six-months. I guess i really did miss you, Lj!
resisting the temptation to order from Galetto's for lunch.
Galettos=so incredibly good..
reading old entries, because lets face it-- there's nothing really else to do online. and i am EXTREMELY bored.
anyways, i got this sense from them that either:
a) i am a complete loser now, more so than i was one year ago, and/or:
b) i was definitely without a doubt thisclose to personally figuring out the meaning of life.
i am totally serious. read old shit if you don't believe me.
might be seeing angela today-- and i say that tenatively, because truthfully whenever we make plans they never seem to work out, and i always end up feeling like an asshole. last thurs (or wed?) we were supposed to see eachother (yeah wed) but i ended up having shitloads of errands to do. well anyways, i do miss her shitloads and i definitely DO want to see her.
so i hope today works out. i need some time with her.
and i'm afraid that if i get it, i might just break down.
i spent an hour today looking up hotels/motels on the cape, made myself all excited, started daydreaming about vacationing (even if it is for only 3 days!) with my michael, and toni and mat like last year. then i realized that i was sitting in a perfume store, came back down to earth, and bleh goes from there.
MAINE is NEXT FRIDAY.
NEXT FUCKING FRIDAY.
you'd think that by now after about six years of this i would be able to anticipate transition (at the very least!) better than ever, but no.
not even close.
the only thing that i've gotten used to is the reality of it.
honestly, though, it's not so bad when i'm up and getting into the swing of things, partly i think because of the fact that i have a)a job and b)a car.
ummm.. last year i went fucking nuts and started thinking that i was some kind of princess with endless amounts of money who could prance around whenever and to wherever she pleased. well, by september 10, princess had about $30 in her bank account.
NOTE TO SELF: try to stay, like, on earth this year, please???
hm.
anything else to write?
probably not..nothing that I can think about right now.
yeah i'd say that right now i'm just normal.
i need a cigarette and i'm pretty hungry, but normal.
hm.
aalllritteeee a-hoooles (but i love yaa!) im out.. leave comments if ANYONE even USES this thing anymore??
...man that was a long-ass first-entry-in-six-months. I guess i really did miss you, Lj!