Entry wihtout a name...
This is going to be a an entry where it doesn't have much of a point. Mind you, my entries don't really have points to them...mere rants, they are. See it as complaining or whining, I don't give a flying fuck.
First of all, ____, fuck off. If you want to bitch me out for something I had no intention of fucking doing, then go right the fuck ahead. It's not my fault you were gone for a week, so don't go and say it's mine and Jen's fault. We showed up because he's our fucking friend, and we HAVE had things we've needed to discuss with him in private, so don't blame us for something we didn't do on purpose. Go ahead, bitch me out. It's not like you haven't done enough damage to me as it is. (mini rant of sorts)
Another thing, it's understandable that half the fucking town probably thinks I'm a lesbian, as well as the school, and certain friends parents/families. I assure you, I do not favor the same sex. I'm still 100% heterosexual. Just because I'm comfortable with my sexuality and can joke around with friends, given that it would seem like I have certain intentions towards them, doesn't mean you have to automatically assume I'm a lesbian, or bisexual. Yes, I joke around with my friends, but I am not serious about anything I do with them, nor are they to I. If anyone knew us and how we act with each other, you would know that NONE of us are something other than heterosexual. Why should any of us have to change who we are, or how we act? We shouldn't, we're not harming anyone, nor are we posing as a threat to anyone or anything with our actions. It pisses me off. Seriously. I would LOVE to confront everyone who thinks this about me, and tell them straight, what the fuck is fact, and what isn't.
As well, the injustice about everything going on with _______ and that whole thing with the fourth floor, the police...all that shit. I'm so worried about everything, and this is complete bullshit! I am so scared for him right now for what's going to happen because of all of this. Jen and I have only gone to see him about three times, and ____ is pissed off, wanting to bitch her and I out, because we "ruined it for his friends now" to be able to have visitors. FUCK. Now isn't that just the fucking cherry on top of everything???
Then there's the issue of family shit...FUN STUFF!!!
And then there's doctor shit. *dances in sarcasm*
I go to Brandon on the 7th for a pediatrician/neurologist consultation for a referral for an MRI, and they may do the MRI while I'm there.
Then there's my chiro. appointment on the 16th.
Then I go see my counselor on the 17th.
Any other appointments, I dunno when they are.
I fear I may become an alcoholic at an early age...I've been wanting to drink more and more, and I'm someone who used to hate anything affiliated with alcohol...and thought it disappointing whenever people I knew were drinking, or were going to drink. But I've been wanting to drink quite often...I don't know why...but I'm starting to think I may end up becoming an alcoholic.
Are you considered suicidal if you've already made a plan to attempt to either kill yourself, or just enough to land you in the hospital? I'm not too sure...
I'm thinking, maybe if I end up on the fourth floor, maybe I'll be able to be secluded finally...see how many people would bother to come see the psychotic freak.
First of all, ____, fuck off. If you want to bitch me out for something I had no intention of fucking doing, then go right the fuck ahead. It's not my fault you were gone for a week, so don't go and say it's mine and Jen's fault. We showed up because he's our fucking friend, and we HAVE had things we've needed to discuss with him in private, so don't blame us for something we didn't do on purpose. Go ahead, bitch me out. It's not like you haven't done enough damage to me as it is. (mini rant of sorts)
Another thing, it's understandable that half the fucking town probably thinks I'm a lesbian, as well as the school, and certain friends parents/families. I assure you, I do not favor the same sex. I'm still 100% heterosexual. Just because I'm comfortable with my sexuality and can joke around with friends, given that it would seem like I have certain intentions towards them, doesn't mean you have to automatically assume I'm a lesbian, or bisexual. Yes, I joke around with my friends, but I am not serious about anything I do with them, nor are they to I. If anyone knew us and how we act with each other, you would know that NONE of us are something other than heterosexual. Why should any of us have to change who we are, or how we act? We shouldn't, we're not harming anyone, nor are we posing as a threat to anyone or anything with our actions. It pisses me off. Seriously. I would LOVE to confront everyone who thinks this about me, and tell them straight, what the fuck is fact, and what isn't.
As well, the injustice about everything going on with _______ and that whole thing with the fourth floor, the police...all that shit. I'm so worried about everything, and this is complete bullshit! I am so scared for him right now for what's going to happen because of all of this. Jen and I have only gone to see him about three times, and ____ is pissed off, wanting to bitch her and I out, because we "ruined it for his friends now" to be able to have visitors. FUCK. Now isn't that just the fucking cherry on top of everything???
Then there's the issue of family shit...FUN STUFF!!!
And then there's doctor shit. *dances in sarcasm*
I go to Brandon on the 7th for a pediatrician/neurologist consultation for a referral for an MRI, and they may do the MRI while I'm there.
Then there's my chiro. appointment on the 16th.
Then I go see my counselor on the 17th.
Any other appointments, I dunno when they are.
I fear I may become an alcoholic at an early age...I've been wanting to drink more and more, and I'm someone who used to hate anything affiliated with alcohol...and thought it disappointing whenever people I knew were drinking, or were going to drink. But I've been wanting to drink quite often...I don't know why...but I'm starting to think I may end up becoming an alcoholic.
Are you considered suicidal if you've already made a plan to attempt to either kill yourself, or just enough to land you in the hospital? I'm not too sure...
I'm thinking, maybe if I end up on the fourth floor, maybe I'll be able to be secluded finally...see how many people would bother to come see the psychotic freak.