Rest in Peace JT. I Love You.
"A Walk to Remember" 2002
I might just being getting this but I have started to notice that all this time there was so many different stories of loss and heart ache.
It's just that when the movies do it your just not feeling the full pain.
I mean you can pretty much get the idea but you never really fully understand.
Well as most of you know I know what it's like now to loose someone that means so much to you and has changed your life. You just don't know how to go on without them but you learn how to deal and move on.
"Deeply" 2000
I am moving along slowly as most of you have seen and I am trying my damndest not to just fall apart or break down in front of everyone. I hate people seeing me cry or loose self control over emotions. I usually run to the bathroom or to a room where I know no one will be and cry. Then I lift myself up, put my chin up, wipe my face and get back to what I was doing.
"Ghost" 1990
Keeping busy with work or friends is my number one prioity right now because it distracts me. From this I have been doing alot better and thanks to them, aka friends and family I am slowly but surely getting my life back together again after this huge crash. But because of this crash and him (JT) I am stronger and trying to live my life to the fullest. I know that sounds like a line from a movie but it is so true. I want to do things that will make me feel like I am moving on and doing things that challenge me to make life better and make life great. And because of JT I am gonna do what he told me when were talking about his brother . . .
"when i talk about my brother it makes me remember all the fun times we had together."
I will do just that honey.
JT and Me 2007