for a brief moment..the future seemed so bright, so shining..i thought i could make it all come true
so.. i been thinking this for a while now and..
i come to the conclution that my life is pretty much like an Ai Yazawa manga..
i can pretty much be summed up as a mix of yukari [paradise kiss] and hachi/ nana komatsu [Nana].. i'm always falling for the wrong guy.. only.. unlike them.. my friends are not as glamorous, nor will i get my happy ending. and my dreams? well.. every day they just feel more and more like silly pipe dreams that i was stupid to ever think i that could achive.. everything i ever wanted, ever hoped for, feels like its falling farther and farther away from me.. i know this and yet i'm still stuck in this self destruct mode.. blindly moving forwards towards something i know will never be.. and i'm too scared to give it all up and move on to something safer.. because.. these things in my life.. my goals, my dreams.. they're all i know.. and now i'm scared that maybe i'll be even more of a nothing without them.
i come to the conclution that my life is pretty much like an Ai Yazawa manga..
i can pretty much be summed up as a mix of yukari [paradise kiss] and hachi/ nana komatsu [Nana].. i'm always falling for the wrong guy.. only.. unlike them.. my friends are not as glamorous, nor will i get my happy ending. and my dreams? well.. every day they just feel more and more like silly pipe dreams that i was stupid to ever think i that could achive.. everything i ever wanted, ever hoped for, feels like its falling farther and farther away from me.. i know this and yet i'm still stuck in this self destruct mode.. blindly moving forwards towards something i know will never be.. and i'm too scared to give it all up and move on to something safer.. because.. these things in my life.. my goals, my dreams.. they're all i know.. and now i'm scared that maybe i'll be even more of a nothing without them.