The Best Part of Waking Up is Jess in Your Cup.
Wow, where to begin. These past few weeks has been quite eventful.
I'm getting steadily better at poker, and I think that the next time i'll play I'll make it to the final table again. It's such a rush. If anyone wants to play, I play at the Barnacle's off of Jimmy Carter on Tuesdays at 7:30. It doesn't cost anything to play, you just go up and get a stack of chips. And note to TOMMY: Nick plays there, too, so you should stop by.
I've been closing at work a lot lately. I haven't been getting a lot of sleep. It's like I get home anywhere between 10:30 and 1, and then i wake up at 6:30. LAME. The insomnia might be creeping back over here. i would not like that at all. I get all sick and shit when I don't sleep.
For my birthday (july 12th) I'm gonna be in the Bahamas/Carribean. and I'm so excited. I'm gonna snorkel a lot, and I might even get diving lessons, which would be sweet. i hope I see a shark, because that would be way cool. i'm kinda depressed that it won't spend my birthday with loved ones, but I'm also excited because I've never been out of the country. I love that I have a summer birthday.
Aside from all the neat stuff that's been happening, I've also got some heavy news. I broke up with Ryan. I know, it's shocking, but it needed to happen. I'm being smothered by too many things before going into college, and a relationship that serious was just making things worse. I'm not saying I don't love him. I do, it's just that I need to be free of that before I go away for 4 years. It would be way too stressful to keep an incredibly serious relationship going long distance.
I realized that I need to follow my dreams and I can't have anything holding me back. Not even Ryan. I'm to young to be thinking about marriage and children. i need to be open and free and willing to try new things, explore other places. I feel like, if I were in a relationship, I'd be strapped to a wall with nowhere to go. It's not a good feeling. So I had to end it, before breaking up would hurt even more.
I know people were rooting for us, even looking up to our relationship as a guide for their own. But these things happen, and life does go on. I can't not live my life the way I want to. I don't have very long in the grand scheme of things.
Well i guess that's it for now. I really want to hang out with friends this summer, so people need to call me. 678 371 9151
I love you all.
dance as though no one is watching you, love as though you have never been hurt before, sing as though no one can hear you, live as though heaven is on earth.
-souza
Do one thing everday that scares you.
-Eleanor Roosevelt
happiness is a journey, not a destination. for a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. but there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. at last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. this perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness. happiness is the way. so treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.
-souza
I'm getting steadily better at poker, and I think that the next time i'll play I'll make it to the final table again. It's such a rush. If anyone wants to play, I play at the Barnacle's off of Jimmy Carter on Tuesdays at 7:30. It doesn't cost anything to play, you just go up and get a stack of chips. And note to TOMMY: Nick plays there, too, so you should stop by.
I've been closing at work a lot lately. I haven't been getting a lot of sleep. It's like I get home anywhere between 10:30 and 1, and then i wake up at 6:30. LAME. The insomnia might be creeping back over here. i would not like that at all. I get all sick and shit when I don't sleep.
For my birthday (july 12th) I'm gonna be in the Bahamas/Carribean. and I'm so excited. I'm gonna snorkel a lot, and I might even get diving lessons, which would be sweet. i hope I see a shark, because that would be way cool. i'm kinda depressed that it won't spend my birthday with loved ones, but I'm also excited because I've never been out of the country. I love that I have a summer birthday.
Aside from all the neat stuff that's been happening, I've also got some heavy news. I broke up with Ryan. I know, it's shocking, but it needed to happen. I'm being smothered by too many things before going into college, and a relationship that serious was just making things worse. I'm not saying I don't love him. I do, it's just that I need to be free of that before I go away for 4 years. It would be way too stressful to keep an incredibly serious relationship going long distance.
I realized that I need to follow my dreams and I can't have anything holding me back. Not even Ryan. I'm to young to be thinking about marriage and children. i need to be open and free and willing to try new things, explore other places. I feel like, if I were in a relationship, I'd be strapped to a wall with nowhere to go. It's not a good feeling. So I had to end it, before breaking up would hurt even more.
I know people were rooting for us, even looking up to our relationship as a guide for their own. But these things happen, and life does go on. I can't not live my life the way I want to. I don't have very long in the grand scheme of things.
Well i guess that's it for now. I really want to hang out with friends this summer, so people need to call me. 678 371 9151
I love you all.
dance as though no one is watching you, love as though you have never been hurt before, sing as though no one can hear you, live as though heaven is on earth.
-souza
Do one thing everday that scares you.
-Eleanor Roosevelt
happiness is a journey, not a destination. for a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. but there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. at last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. this perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness. happiness is the way. so treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.
-souza