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Why does Adrian feel he needs to fuck up my life entirely with his? He told me Saturday he was coming for the boys. Wtf, is my automatic response? "ok" but wtf am I thinking? Who, what, when, where, how? My mind was flooded of things I could do, places I could go and not have to worry once again that I have to be home before the sun came up. He came with his bitch in tow and the kids filed out. He came to my door and asked me some shit about the boys. He ended up calling his sister to see if she was going to be able to bring them back. My phone rang. It was Alma. She was asking what we were going to do. My other line rang. It was Adam. I stayed talking to Adam when I hear him say, "Naw well this bitch is already making all kinds of plans with her fucking lil friends and her bitch boyfriends". I went off. I'm sorry. its none of his fucking business who the hell I talk to, where I go, or who I screw. He took off and called me a few minutes later saying that i better break my plans with my bitch cuz he was taking the kids home that night. omg! I told him he was just hating cuz he was stuck with some stupid ass how that could never treat him the way I did and he knows he cant have me back...some shit like that. I hung up and vented on Adam. lol. Poor guy. He didnt know how to calm me down but he did. He had me laughing and i forgot why I was pissed for a while. 'tupid Adam. He's a cool guy. Too bad he's too young. His birthday is coming up. I wanna give him something special. What the hell do you give a 21 year old fire-fighter?? I'll figure something out.
I really should be doing my homework but i got alot on my mind.
I really don't know whether to belive Steve or not. He says that his feelings for me are genuine and when he comes back for the summer, he might not even leave if things go well. But I can't help asking myself, if he really cared about me the way he says he does, why is he still living with this other chick? i hate fucking games, I hate fucking liars but I dont want to hate Steve. I am fine being friends with him but he won't leave it alone that he wants more. I don't know....I dont think i can do it.
Me and Mike were emailing eachother on Friday. Seems that he thinks Im over jealous, and I play too many games. *rolls eyes* I heard enough of that shit for 8 years with Adrian. I was that type. I am willing to admit that but it gets old quick. It leads to more arguments and pushes you apart. You end up not trusting eachother....big mess. I learned you need to trust the person in the relaionship you are with or else it will never work out. I gave Adrian the benifit of the doubt when he said they were his friends. But in the end, he was lying and banging them behind my back. That's Adrian for you. I am tired of trying to convince Mike that I'm not like that. I dont know if maybe one of his exes was like that and hes traumatized or what. eh....i'm not gonna worry about it anymore, if he really cared enough, he'd call or something. I'm not gonna waste my time with a guy that never cared in the first place.
I really need to do my homework...
I really should be doing my homework but i got alot on my mind.
I really don't know whether to belive Steve or not. He says that his feelings for me are genuine and when he comes back for the summer, he might not even leave if things go well. But I can't help asking myself, if he really cared about me the way he says he does, why is he still living with this other chick? i hate fucking games, I hate fucking liars but I dont want to hate Steve. I am fine being friends with him but he won't leave it alone that he wants more. I don't know....I dont think i can do it.
Me and Mike were emailing eachother on Friday. Seems that he thinks Im over jealous, and I play too many games. *rolls eyes* I heard enough of that shit for 8 years with Adrian. I was that type. I am willing to admit that but it gets old quick. It leads to more arguments and pushes you apart. You end up not trusting eachother....big mess. I learned you need to trust the person in the relaionship you are with or else it will never work out. I gave Adrian the benifit of the doubt when he said they were his friends. But in the end, he was lying and banging them behind my back. That's Adrian for you. I am tired of trying to convince Mike that I'm not like that. I dont know if maybe one of his exes was like that and hes traumatized or what. eh....i'm not gonna worry about it anymore, if he really cared enough, he'd call or something. I'm not gonna waste my time with a guy that never cared in the first place.
I really need to do my homework...