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I know I know, it's been a while.
i'm still failing Algebra. lmfao. No surprise there. Although I am getting to know more people at school and we have come the conclusion that it is not just me and it is probably the professers teaching techniques. Ah boo!
I havent updated cuz to be honest, there is not much to update on.
I am still single although Fernie is trying to come around again. He claims to have missed me and wants me back. I can't bring myself to tell him that I want nothing to do with him. So I talk nice with him for a lil bit and then I politely excuse myself and hang up.
Slowly and surely my friendship with alma seems to be fading. I mean...I love her, dont get me wrong, i just feel wierd that I am closer to Vanessa and Alex and they are not even in the same area code. She has been meeting new people and so have i. It was bound to happen i guess.
i've been speaking with this chick from school. Her name is Tonya. Shes the complete opposite of Alma. Very calm and quiet, she brings the "nerdieness" out of me and I feel very comfortable with her around.
People come and go out of our lives but do they really make a difference? I keep asking myself that.
Alex was in town a few weeks ago. It had been 2 years since i had last seen him and it felt like not a day passed when he hugged me. He looks the same, lol, although he claims to have gone under major tranformation. So off to the club we went, him with his crazy hair and ultra cool belt buckle that i want and me with my pimp hat. Yes, I have a pimp hat. I look fucking fly in it, dont hate. lol. All I needed was the cane.
Did I mention i dyed my hair? I dont know why. I would say I am rebeling but against what? I'm 25! I think I'm just trying to find myself right now and experimenting to find out who the real me is.
I have realized I'm not the wild girl I want to be. I can be at times but not all the time. Im also not as bitchy as i thought i was. To be honest...I think Im a combo of alot of personalities. I find myself wanting to be alone with a book and silence of no kids around, other times i want to be at the clubs, drinking like there is no tomorrow and shaking my ass for all its worth. I dont know...identity crisis maybe?
I have met this one guy though. I have given up putting their names in here just for privacy we shall refer to him as M. I went to go meet him with no intentions of ever doing anything with him. Turns out I did. I went home feeling foolish. What the hell was I doing that for? I had more respect for myself than that, what can he possibly think of me? I was surprised that he called that night. And has been calling me ever since. I like him. Genuinely, like him. I can't read him though and so I dont know what his intentions are but as far as i can tell he likes me too. Or he wouldnt call me everyday. Although i have to admit, he hasnt called today. I understand he is goign through alot of stuff at school so im trying to cut him a break. Although...if he isnt interested in me, he needs to tell me now and save both of us time. I want something to happen but the ball is in his court. We'll see..
My boys are wanting to go home. To home, we shall....
i'm still failing Algebra. lmfao. No surprise there. Although I am getting to know more people at school and we have come the conclusion that it is not just me and it is probably the professers teaching techniques. Ah boo!
I havent updated cuz to be honest, there is not much to update on.
I am still single although Fernie is trying to come around again. He claims to have missed me and wants me back. I can't bring myself to tell him that I want nothing to do with him. So I talk nice with him for a lil bit and then I politely excuse myself and hang up.
Slowly and surely my friendship with alma seems to be fading. I mean...I love her, dont get me wrong, i just feel wierd that I am closer to Vanessa and Alex and they are not even in the same area code. She has been meeting new people and so have i. It was bound to happen i guess.
i've been speaking with this chick from school. Her name is Tonya. Shes the complete opposite of Alma. Very calm and quiet, she brings the "nerdieness" out of me and I feel very comfortable with her around.
People come and go out of our lives but do they really make a difference? I keep asking myself that.
Alex was in town a few weeks ago. It had been 2 years since i had last seen him and it felt like not a day passed when he hugged me. He looks the same, lol, although he claims to have gone under major tranformation. So off to the club we went, him with his crazy hair and ultra cool belt buckle that i want and me with my pimp hat. Yes, I have a pimp hat. I look fucking fly in it, dont hate. lol. All I needed was the cane.
Did I mention i dyed my hair? I dont know why. I would say I am rebeling but against what? I'm 25! I think I'm just trying to find myself right now and experimenting to find out who the real me is.
I have realized I'm not the wild girl I want to be. I can be at times but not all the time. Im also not as bitchy as i thought i was. To be honest...I think Im a combo of alot of personalities. I find myself wanting to be alone with a book and silence of no kids around, other times i want to be at the clubs, drinking like there is no tomorrow and shaking my ass for all its worth. I dont know...identity crisis maybe?
I have met this one guy though. I have given up putting their names in here just for privacy we shall refer to him as M. I went to go meet him with no intentions of ever doing anything with him. Turns out I did. I went home feeling foolish. What the hell was I doing that for? I had more respect for myself than that, what can he possibly think of me? I was surprised that he called that night. And has been calling me ever since. I like him. Genuinely, like him. I can't read him though and so I dont know what his intentions are but as far as i can tell he likes me too. Or he wouldnt call me everyday. Although i have to admit, he hasnt called today. I understand he is goign through alot of stuff at school so im trying to cut him a break. Although...if he isnt interested in me, he needs to tell me now and save both of us time. I want something to happen but the ball is in his court. We'll see..
My boys are wanting to go home. To home, we shall....