yup... life...
i've been telling shane not to worry about it... but i can't help but wonder... i guess, i have to have sergery to find out if i really have either of them or not... interstitial cystitis, or endometriosis. It still sucks either way... i'm not sure what i should do.. think.. say... at this point i guess there isn't anything that will change any of this... i'll have to live with either for the rest of my life... the pain won't go away... and it could get better... though at this point they're really not sure about it... i just have to be patient in finding out what it could all be... and until then, I'll just have to be in constant pain... well, almost always constant. it has been getting better... but my side hurts an awful lot... at least i know it isn't in my head now, and i'm not making it all up... i was worried there for a while that it was just me... i guess it's not just me... there are lots of people in the world that have experienced what i am... and many that will never recieve treatment for it.. so.. what is there that I can say... just be happy with it and except it and move on... shane know's even though i've been telling him i'm fine that i'm lying... he knows that i'm full of shit and that i'll continue to tell him that until it's too late... i don't know what else to tell him... i just have to except it and move on... there are more pressing matters in my life... other than my health right? I guess... we move on... life will be over soon enough anyway.. the years will fly by and I won't even notice the rest... no need to pay attention to tiny detail... right? Right? I hope i'm right.