one thing i don't miss
i guess its just so hard for me. i trust people so easily and that is my one true fault. because i believe that everyone has even a little bit of good and honesty somewhere in them. i am probably wrong and i know this makes me niave. but i've been hurt this year as bad as last year and it has yet to be a month. the people who have hurt me so bad don't even know it. i may be a bit niave to the cruelty of the world but there are a few trustworthy, good, and honest people who care enough about me to tell me what is going on when i am not around. and to those who doubt my relationship with Derick, i treat him well and he is the best that has happened to me in a long time. we are happy together and we both deserve to be. after everything we both went thru last year and the continous lies and backstabbing i try to overlook, and bets that some people think i don't know about, i can't deal with that anymore. i also want to say, and i read this is Jezzica's LJ, i am typing this for me. i don't care who reads this and who doesn't. it's me getting this out cuz it's been building up. all this shit, i'm done with it. i swear i doesnt matter what i do, one thing i've learned while being here is not to trust anyone.