eyes shut.

[evil_chibi_urd]

i just wanted to tell you that i loved you. i love you. i really, really do. yet i feel there is no hope for us.

you'll never change...while i already have.

they say change will do you good.

i realize that i can finally breathe without you. i am just able to enjoy it more, when you're there. but i need more than this. i need more than us. i need more from you than what you're willing to give.

You say you'll be different now. You say you'll change. You say you'll do it right this time.

I hope to God you do. I don't want to wake up without you beside me, anymore.

But i will, if i need to.

I made it through nine months. I can laugh, i can live without you.

so, i'll be closing my eyes and praying for a miracle.

because i'm pretty sure nothing short of divine intervention is going to save us.