Jul 19, 2010 03:21
Girl, You know I love you...
...But things just aren't working out. It's all me, I can't blame you. I knew how you were when we first hooked up, and you haven't changed. We have just as much fun now as we ever did, we get along just as good, everything should be great. But I have a problem, girl...I love you too much. Whenever you come around, I can never say "no," even if I should know better. You see, The Man, he's got this test. He's a jealous bastard, and he knows we've been fooling around. If only I would have said "no," that last time, maybe I would have gotten away with it. But I've fooled around like that before and never gotten caught. I just got complacent, took things for granted.
Now I'm out of work, can't hardly pay my bills, and they say I have to leave you if I ever want my job back. They're making me choose between you and the sea. Shit, I wasn't gonna say it and break your heart like this...but yeah, I said it: I've been seeing someone else: the Ocean. She's a jealous one too but damn she treats me right. Pays all my bills, takes me around the world, she's shown me things I couldn't have dreamed. I've lived this double life so long, hiding you from each other, I can't do it anymore. I know I'll always love you, you'll alway love me. But I've only got so much time with the sea...it's a young man's game and I'm not getting any younger. I have to quit you, girl, so I can get back what The Man has taken away.
When they first found out, I was so sad and ashamed I didn't even tell my friends I was home. For a couple months I just moped around, not sure what to do with myself, not sure if I had the Will to get up and do what I knew I had to. But I've got to do it.
Goddamn the Man for making me choose like this. But really, I can't say I haven't thought of quitting you before. Sometimes, we'll be hanging out, laughing our asses off, having a good time just sitting on the couch. But there's a whole world out there, things I want to do, and I'll be having too much fun just sitting on my ass to get up and do it. So I think it's for the best. I know I'll still see you around, and believe me it won't be easy. But nothing lasts forever, and I know we'll be together again some day.
Love,
SailorHarry
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