"It's my manner, sir."
- "Your manner?"
- "Yes. It looks insubordinate, but it isn't really."
Anyone know this dialogue ? No ? Ooooh...you're disappointing me. But I should have known. It appears nobody but me likes this film, I wonder why. Well, it's from 'Lawrence of Arabia' (if you haven't seen it, watch it!! One of the most brilliant films ever made). It's a dialogue between Lawrence and General Murray. Why am I mentioning this ? Easy. It's what came to my mind after I had to listen to how horrible my presentation for the Britain 80s seminar had been. Lawrence's sentence came to my mind "It's my manner, sir." Well, I got a horrible grade which I really don't want to think about any more, but the worst part was the shit the prof told me. That I spoke too monotonously ( I swear to God, I don't), that I was speaking too fast (I do, but...it's just my manner), that I was too nervous (I was, but not "too"), that I showed considerably too little self-confidence (I did not!! Why do people always tell me I lack self-confidence ?! It's bullshit). I was advised not to be afraid of my "fellow students" (I'm not, don't care who's sitting there) and to do some "exercises" to be able to calm down (don't need that, wasn't *that* nervous), because, if I did not change that, I wouldn't be able to go through with the uni thing. That's a quote, I was told that. Well, I spoke to my mother and offered throwing myself in front of the next car. Because, hey, what's the point ? I can't change, the way I am sucks, ergo, end it right there. They really know how to make you feel immensely stupid and insignificant. Since Wednesday, I wonder "Just how dumb are you?" And from what I had to listen to, I must be a serious threat to the guys from "Dumb and Dumber".
About the nervousness....I have a feeling that "my manner" was interpreted wrongly. I mean, what would you think about a person that speaks quickly, with a slightly breaking voice (happens all the time I have to talk too much) and gesticulates constantly ? Nervous ? Probably. But it's what I do all the time. It's my manner. See? Lawrence definitely has a point there.:) Apart from that, I really want to know how you feel and act when you realize you are talking for a too long period of time and you are told you have four minutes left for the
rest (four pages) ? Right.
Anyway, let's forget about it. Next time I know slightly better. Apart from that: they were wrong and I was right. Did you know that's an inversion from another "Lawrence of Arabia" quote ? It's from Prince Feisal. So, this weekend, I gotta learn for the test in the seminar and pray to God to be able to pass. I think I might need some divine help, because I seem even less smart than usual these days. I never do well at anything. Yeah, pity me. It's really frustrating. But hey, nothing is written, right.:) Lawrence again. Maybe I should go watch the film to get it out of my system. I actually haven't watched it for months....Hmmm....Well, there's an idea, I guess. Cause I did not have any plans besides learning. Which is certainly the most important thing, but learning only does serious damages to your brain (as if mine wasn't damaged enough, je sais :)). I guess I should cheer up. Hey, there's yet another Lawrence-quote. "I'm not hurt at all. Didn't you know? They can only kill me with a
golden bullet." That's the attitude! :)
I'll end this (boring, uninteresting...it's because I'm pissed off and tired, okay?!) entry with one of my favourite Lawrence of Arabia dialogues:
Bedouin Guide: [talking of Britain] Is that a desert country?
T.E. Lawrence: No: a fat country, fat people.
Bedouin Guide: You are not fat?
T.E. Lawrence: No, I am different.
- "Yes. It looks insubordinate, but it isn't really."
Anyone know this dialogue ? No ? Ooooh...you're disappointing me. But I should have known. It appears nobody but me likes this film, I wonder why. Well, it's from 'Lawrence of Arabia' (if you haven't seen it, watch it!! One of the most brilliant films ever made). It's a dialogue between Lawrence and General Murray. Why am I mentioning this ? Easy. It's what came to my mind after I had to listen to how horrible my presentation for the Britain 80s seminar had been. Lawrence's sentence came to my mind "It's my manner, sir." Well, I got a horrible grade which I really don't want to think about any more, but the worst part was the shit the prof told me. That I spoke too monotonously ( I swear to God, I don't), that I was speaking too fast (I do, but...it's just my manner), that I was too nervous (I was, but not "too"), that I showed considerably too little self-confidence (I did not!! Why do people always tell me I lack self-confidence ?! It's bullshit). I was advised not to be afraid of my "fellow students" (I'm not, don't care who's sitting there) and to do some "exercises" to be able to calm down (don't need that, wasn't *that* nervous), because, if I did not change that, I wouldn't be able to go through with the uni thing. That's a quote, I was told that. Well, I spoke to my mother and offered throwing myself in front of the next car. Because, hey, what's the point ? I can't change, the way I am sucks, ergo, end it right there. They really know how to make you feel immensely stupid and insignificant. Since Wednesday, I wonder "Just how dumb are you?" And from what I had to listen to, I must be a serious threat to the guys from "Dumb and Dumber".
About the nervousness....I have a feeling that "my manner" was interpreted wrongly. I mean, what would you think about a person that speaks quickly, with a slightly breaking voice (happens all the time I have to talk too much) and gesticulates constantly ? Nervous ? Probably. But it's what I do all the time. It's my manner. See? Lawrence definitely has a point there.:) Apart from that, I really want to know how you feel and act when you realize you are talking for a too long period of time and you are told you have four minutes left for the
rest (four pages) ? Right.
Anyway, let's forget about it. Next time I know slightly better. Apart from that: they were wrong and I was right. Did you know that's an inversion from another "Lawrence of Arabia" quote ? It's from Prince Feisal. So, this weekend, I gotta learn for the test in the seminar and pray to God to be able to pass. I think I might need some divine help, because I seem even less smart than usual these days. I never do well at anything. Yeah, pity me. It's really frustrating. But hey, nothing is written, right.:) Lawrence again. Maybe I should go watch the film to get it out of my system. I actually haven't watched it for months....Hmmm....Well, there's an idea, I guess. Cause I did not have any plans besides learning. Which is certainly the most important thing, but learning only does serious damages to your brain (as if mine wasn't damaged enough, je sais :)). I guess I should cheer up. Hey, there's yet another Lawrence-quote. "I'm not hurt at all. Didn't you know? They can only kill me with a
golden bullet." That's the attitude! :)
I'll end this (boring, uninteresting...it's because I'm pissed off and tired, okay?!) entry with one of my favourite Lawrence of Arabia dialogues:
Bedouin Guide: [talking of Britain] Is that a desert country?
T.E. Lawrence: No: a fat country, fat people.
Bedouin Guide: You are not fat?
T.E. Lawrence: No, I am different.