Memories...

[evethree]

Having quit any drugs that require smoking and forgetting, I have come to recall many things that I'd once thougt I wouldn't ever remember..

My life seems to be passing by really quickly.. I can't focus on one specific moment. It's insane and unimportant, but I dislike it..

I remember myself as a weak minded person, stuck in childhood. I can't forgive myself for things I have done or people I have hurt. I can forgive people who have hurt me, and I can try to make amends. I wish I could go back and change things, make them better, at least make the endings less painful and destructive. I want to be thought of differently, because I've changed. Unfortunately, the past stays exactly as I left it, and people will always consider me either a bitch or a loser...or both.

There are people that I want to apologize to.. People that didn't deserve my insane mind and actions, people that I made crazy, and people that deserved better than someone like me. I am sorry, I do feel the guilt of my actions.

So, if I randomly say I'm sorry, you know why..and you don't have to forgive me, either.