shit sucks.
i'm in a slump
i don't understand how everything could have turned to shit
in a matter of months.
i honestly don't know what we're gonna do in a month from now
everything is going to be so hard.
it even makes me tear up.
fuckk i don't even want to think about it anymore
but it seems like thats all i do.
financially&emotionally we are fucked.
last night was so fucking scary for me
in front of my eyes
i saw my granpa have like seizure
and stop breathing
fuckk mann and then seeing my mom and dad giving him cpr
wtf like i can't even describe those feelings
i'm soo thankful he made it through
like if it wasn't for my parents
i honestly don't think he would have made it.
right now he's in the hospital
from time to time he looks great...
then before we know it he mumbles things about death.
its truely scary. :[
on a better note...
we found out my mom doesn't have cancer
THANK GOD once again.
ahh that was such a relief
i couldn't imagine all thats going on
PLUS that pile on top.
last sunday i went to church with my dad
it had been a lonnnng while since i had gone
i actually sat there and listened.
it was weird because the mass was about people
who have no faith and don't go to church
which is pretty much mee.
after yesterday...
i'm pretty sure i'll be there this sunday.
its unbelievable with all that we [my family] give
how we can have such horrible karma
2008 has to be the 2nd worst year of my life.
but i guess we'll have to see
i still have 5 more months till this year is done...
:/
i don't understand how everything could have turned to shit
in a matter of months.
i honestly don't know what we're gonna do in a month from now
everything is going to be so hard.
it even makes me tear up.
fuckk i don't even want to think about it anymore
but it seems like thats all i do.
financially&emotionally we are fucked.
last night was so fucking scary for me
in front of my eyes
i saw my granpa have like seizure
and stop breathing
fuckk mann and then seeing my mom and dad giving him cpr
wtf like i can't even describe those feelings
i'm soo thankful he made it through
like if it wasn't for my parents
i honestly don't think he would have made it.
right now he's in the hospital
from time to time he looks great...
then before we know it he mumbles things about death.
its truely scary. :[
on a better note...
we found out my mom doesn't have cancer
THANK GOD once again.
ahh that was such a relief
i couldn't imagine all thats going on
PLUS that pile on top.
last sunday i went to church with my dad
it had been a lonnnng while since i had gone
i actually sat there and listened.
it was weird because the mass was about people
who have no faith and don't go to church
which is pretty much mee.
after yesterday...
i'm pretty sure i'll be there this sunday.
its unbelievable with all that we [my family] give
how we can have such horrible karma
2008 has to be the 2nd worst year of my life.
but i guess we'll have to see
i still have 5 more months till this year is done...
:/