NO GOOD TRYING
okay so here's the deal...
my mom and my brother have been talking to me about my so called friends
ha people that i call friends
and how i always have beer for them
either i put in for colecta or my dad does
and like NO one shows any type of appreciation for it
:/
[though i told them that some did]
after that day i haven't been able to get that out of my head.
it really does suck.
yesterday i got to hang out with jamie and amy
and i was telling them...about the situation...and how its like stayed in my head and i dunno i'm bothered by it now...
and i told them how i think its because in high school i really didn't have any friends
like to drink or smoke with...i guess i was kinda like a loner?
and now that i have a lot of them, i don't want to lose them?
hahaha i sound so fuckin pathetic
AHHHGGG!
i hate this! :/
why did my mom and brother bring this up???
:/
fuck i'm almost 20, in 2 days.
it scares me
i've done NOTHING with my lifee...
i went to school for like 3 semesters?
now i have NO money...
and i work at mervyns :/
geeez.
i need to get my head out of my ass
haha i was tripping out the other day...
my dad is always telling my friends that they have potential and all that shit
and i don't think ONCE he's told me that since i've graduated from high school?
LOST HOPE.
my birthday is gonna be the 1st of september
i don't want any new people...
like friends of friends of friends.
none of that bullshit.
i want people that I want to be around
people that make ME happy
because next year i don't know if i'm gonna have a party
i don't want it
i want something NEW next year
something for me to break out of my shell...
something to show that i've made a change in a year from now.
i was really hoping las vegas?
bahaha. :]
maybe me and jamie can go?
cuz i know we'll be friends foreverrrr!
haha awww all corny.
naw i just wanted to let things out SOMEWHERE.
and here's the only place.
hmm :]
:/
my mom and my brother have been talking to me about my so called friends
ha people that i call friends
and how i always have beer for them
either i put in for colecta or my dad does
and like NO one shows any type of appreciation for it
:/
[though i told them that some did]
after that day i haven't been able to get that out of my head.
it really does suck.
yesterday i got to hang out with jamie and amy
and i was telling them...about the situation...and how its like stayed in my head and i dunno i'm bothered by it now...
and i told them how i think its because in high school i really didn't have any friends
like to drink or smoke with...i guess i was kinda like a loner?
and now that i have a lot of them, i don't want to lose them?
hahaha i sound so fuckin pathetic
AHHHGGG!
i hate this! :/
why did my mom and brother bring this up???
:/
fuck i'm almost 20, in 2 days.
it scares me
i've done NOTHING with my lifee...
i went to school for like 3 semesters?
now i have NO money...
and i work at mervyns :/
geeez.
i need to get my head out of my ass
haha i was tripping out the other day...
my dad is always telling my friends that they have potential and all that shit
and i don't think ONCE he's told me that since i've graduated from high school?
LOST HOPE.
my birthday is gonna be the 1st of september
i don't want any new people...
like friends of friends of friends.
none of that bullshit.
i want people that I want to be around
people that make ME happy
because next year i don't know if i'm gonna have a party
i don't want it
i want something NEW next year
something for me to break out of my shell...
something to show that i've made a change in a year from now.
i was really hoping las vegas?
bahaha. :]
maybe me and jamie can go?
cuz i know we'll be friends foreverrrr!
haha awww all corny.
naw i just wanted to let things out SOMEWHERE.
and here's the only place.
hmm :]
:/