Running away from pain when you've been victimized
Hehehe wow. I've been generally happy for the past two hours or so and it's been strange. The best part is the amount of shit that has been thrown in my general direction, which has ended up actually benefitting me, when I'm sure the intent behind wasn't that. I mean there were people who were sticking up for me in a certain person's online journal, which is awesome.
A very important lesson came to met in a very strange way but one of those things that I can step back and say "wow, this sucks but is definitely for the better, so oi oi!!" Basically it was told to me that whatever other people say about you behind your back isn't really your business. And I have been pondering that a bit. I guess it's not really my business if certain people have nothing better to talk about then me; I actually kind of pity them.
I got to hang out with James and Kyle right after IR for a few hours at Taco Bell. Wow that was pretty funny, but not all the time unfortunately. Although I don't know if it's really unfortunate. I found out my "sex" life (for lack of a better term) is a more common topic than I thought. This one confuses me b/c I don't know what could be fascinating about a virgin in a monogamous relationship, but whatever.
So basically I learned from this week that people have a problem with my political views, any sort of expression of said views, my religion (which actually no one even knows anything about at this point except maybe Kyle... and I doubt he tells people about it), and my non-existent sex life. Wow! I'm more interesting than I thought.
I actually love myself right now despite what you might think. Not that I find pleasure in pissing people off, but the fact that even though people put me down for these things, I haven't compromised myself to please others.
Well I should go do some work and sleep. Good times in our room at IR, and Natty and I saw a great movie about Professor Kinsey which gave me a different sort of view on sex. Crazy stuff. Off to studyland!
Peace and Love,
~BA
A very important lesson came to met in a very strange way but one of those things that I can step back and say "wow, this sucks but is definitely for the better, so oi oi!!" Basically it was told to me that whatever other people say about you behind your back isn't really your business. And I have been pondering that a bit. I guess it's not really my business if certain people have nothing better to talk about then me; I actually kind of pity them.
I got to hang out with James and Kyle right after IR for a few hours at Taco Bell. Wow that was pretty funny, but not all the time unfortunately. Although I don't know if it's really unfortunate. I found out my "sex" life (for lack of a better term) is a more common topic than I thought. This one confuses me b/c I don't know what could be fascinating about a virgin in a monogamous relationship, but whatever.
So basically I learned from this week that people have a problem with my political views, any sort of expression of said views, my religion (which actually no one even knows anything about at this point except maybe Kyle... and I doubt he tells people about it), and my non-existent sex life. Wow! I'm more interesting than I thought.
I actually love myself right now despite what you might think. Not that I find pleasure in pissing people off, but the fact that even though people put me down for these things, I haven't compromised myself to please others.
Well I should go do some work and sleep. Good times in our room at IR, and Natty and I saw a great movie about Professor Kinsey which gave me a different sort of view on sex. Crazy stuff. Off to studyland!
Peace and Love,
~BA