A place to grow ... (Chapter 24)
Author: Everything_Once
Pairing: Katie/Effy, Naomy/Emily and some others ...
Rating: M
Warnings: Swearing and some Book spoilers
Summary: How to grow up, when you're not really sure that it's what you want ...
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Chapter Twenty-four
***Effy’s thoughts***
It’s been almost a week and I still haven’t said a word.
It’s not that I don’t wanna talk or anything it’s just cause I don’t know what to say anymore.
To be honest my mother’s words have killed me … well not technically but something have been broke inside me.
She has never wanted me in the first place … So why I’m there?
I’ve stopped cutting myself … well I’ve been forced to.
Katie I’ve been there at every minute, day or night, she has never leaved me.
Just like she has promised me.
We now are staying in our bedroom.
The girls need their bed because Tom is sleeping with nouvelle since his mother death.
It has happen 2 or 3 days ago, I’m not really sure.
Poor boy, he must be devastated … just like I am … Now I know how it really feels to lost a mother.
I’m just a fucking mess, I spend my day in bed, crying, drinking and taking drugs.
Yeah it seems that the old Effy is back in Bristol.
I’m shit … pure shit … but Katie is just great … fucking amazing actually.
She just stays there, watch me destroy my life without saying anything or judging … she’s just there!
She’s even next to me, stroking my back and holding my hairs when I’m on my knee in the bathroom puking all the alcohol and drugs my little body can contain!
We spend our days in bed.
I’m in her arms, cuddling into her warm body, she’s gently stocking my arms, and sometimes living butterflies kiss on my neck and back.
To be honest I think that if she wasn’t there with me, I’ll probably dead right now… She’s keeping me alive!
“Babe, it’s time to eat, you’re coming with me?”
I shake my head, and her smile is fading for a second.
I hate myself for what I’m doing to her right now… but everything is just too much …
“Ok. I won’t be long. Why don’t you sleep for a bit…”
She’s living. She have stop trying to kiss on the lips cause I always stop her.
But right now, I need her lips on mine … I need to feel alive …
I catch her by the wrists and draw her to me.
I put my right hand behind her neck and I rushed her lips against mine.
The kiss in hard, intense and needy.
I want to show her how much she means for me!
“God Eff! I’ll be right back babe.”
***Katie’s thoughts***
While I’m on the steps I lick my lips and I shiver when I taste her for the first time in days.
Then I touch my lips, they’re on fire!
Tom is already sleeping in the girls’ room.
The three of us sat in the kitchen.
Everything is so quiet.
“How is he doing?”
“A little bit better … he keeps asking about Effy … how is she?”
“A little bit better too, but she’s still not speaking. I don’t know what to do, she’s so broken, how am I supposed to help her?”
A tear is running on my cheek.
Emily slowly kisses me on the cheek while Naomi is squeezing my leg.
“Just be there for her, she knows you’re there and that’s what matter.”
While saying that Emily’s watching intently at Naomi.
“Why don’t you show her that you care and that other people care too…”
Then it just clicks in my head … Pictures …
“Naomi you’re a genius … I need to do something, Ems can you stay with her … And I think I’ll need your help Naomi, if it’s alright of course?”
They both agreed.
It have take Naomi and I almost 3 hours to prepare the attic, but right now it’s perfect. We have managed to transform it into a darkroom where she’ll be able to develop her pictures.
I’ve decorate the room with all the pictures she’s made of Tom this afternoon and a few of Naomi, Emilie and I.
I’ve also put some candles everywhere.
“Katie it’s amazing, I’m sure she’ll appreciate it ...”
“I hope so, i really do!”
“Go get your girl back ... you both need and deserve it!”
When i arrive in our bedroom she’s still in bed, it’s almost like if she hasn’t even move since i left.
“Eff ... babe ... can you please come with me ... there is ... well i just ... there is something i wanna show you”
She slowly gets up and come next to me, as soon as i can i take her hand in mine.
GOD, if miss this contact so much ...
We slowly reach the attic, of course without any words.
When I’m in front of the attic door i turn myself to face her, i take her hands in mines and i look in her eyes.
“Babe, I’ve made it for you because you mean so much for me ... since I’ve met you my life as never been the same. I’ve admired you, hated you, liked you, but now and probably for a long time, if not an entire life, I’ll be loving you! You’ve changed me, i don’t know why, or how or when and i don’t really care! All I know and all i wanna now right now is that i love you, you’re making me happy, alive, horny ... well yeah what I’m trying to say is that i need you ... but I’m not the only one babe ... if she doesn’t want you ...”
She turns her head away from me ... I make her look back at my eyes by taking her head in my hands.
“... Well i do, and it looks like I’m not the only one”
And with that I’m opening the door ...
I let her enter in there first.
I don’t even enter the room immediately, I want her to feel free in there.
I know she’s hurt at the moment so I don’t wanna push her or anything.
After a minute or so i enter.
She’s still watching at all the pictures. I’m approaching her, but I’m scared that’s the most personal thing I’ve ever made!
But then she approaches me and her eyes are so dark, so intense. It’s almost a whisper but I heard it!
“I’m in love with you too K. This is ... this is amazing ... no one ever ...”
She’s crying ... and now i get it words hurt her so she’s not using them ... she doesn’t need words when she’s living!
She takes my hand and gently places it on her heart.
“It’s beating for you, cause of you, thanks to you ...”
Then she kisses me!
It’s the most intense kiss we’ve ever shared!
It’s nothing like before ... it’s almost like with this kiss I’m making her alive again!
But believe me this feeling goes both ways!
My life will probably never be the same now ...
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