London Town
Before I left I said I would be relocating my thoughts. False. I don't know why I thought I could do that. Livejournal is home; has been for over 5 years.
The past (almost) two months have flown by in London.
I can't stress how different my lifestyle is here. Don't get me wrong, I am myself. But thrown in a new environment, so many things changed.
I'm just a lot less restrictive against myself. Maybe it's because everything here is so laid back, but I feel so free here.
I didn't realize until the past month or so that London wasn't going to change me alone; it was going to be a combination of people here and people back home.
(Just a side note: I'm supposed to be writing a paper right now. I wish I could write papers as freely as I can write this down.)
The other day, when I was walking through Hyde Park, death cab was singing to me: "Home's face, how it ages when you're way."
But home will not age, the people will though. I'm not going to be different when I get home, my lifestyle will be different.
I am so thrilled to get back to Butler and finish classes and finally feel like I'm closing in on something. I can't wait to be around my family again; I can't wait to see who I spend time with next semester.
I can't wait to start internships and decide what I want to do with my life.
I could honestly make a lengthy list of careers I would enjoy. I decided the other day that my top 3 occupations are 1. music supervisor, 2. english/comp HS teacher, 3. architect. Haha, seriously? I'm such a scatter brain sometime.
But back to the topic at hand, London. I used to say I wanted to live in a big city for some time, the east coast, and some place mountainous. I always thought I'd end up in Chicago for some time, but after living in London... I feel like I'm fulfilling my big city craving. And it's incredible, but I couldn't settle here. I could see myself settling in the English countryside, but I am suffocated by the city. It's so weird being locked into a city, with only public transportation to get around; it's so different.
I've been dealing with a lot of amy issues that past month or so, involving people from home and myself. It's helped me figure out a lot. And I guess the best way to put it is that the people in my life that move me are doing just that, moving me. They're setting standards for every other person I meet in my life; and I like it.
I'm surrounding myself with the people that charge me; highlight who I am. I am just so incredibly anxious about moving forward.
Now I am going to write this paper.
I leave for Amsterdam in 2 days. Happy All Hallow's Eve!
The past (almost) two months have flown by in London.
I can't stress how different my lifestyle is here. Don't get me wrong, I am myself. But thrown in a new environment, so many things changed.
I'm just a lot less restrictive against myself. Maybe it's because everything here is so laid back, but I feel so free here.
I didn't realize until the past month or so that London wasn't going to change me alone; it was going to be a combination of people here and people back home.
(Just a side note: I'm supposed to be writing a paper right now. I wish I could write papers as freely as I can write this down.)
The other day, when I was walking through Hyde Park, death cab was singing to me: "Home's face, how it ages when you're way."
But home will not age, the people will though. I'm not going to be different when I get home, my lifestyle will be different.
I am so thrilled to get back to Butler and finish classes and finally feel like I'm closing in on something. I can't wait to be around my family again; I can't wait to see who I spend time with next semester.
I can't wait to start internships and decide what I want to do with my life.
I could honestly make a lengthy list of careers I would enjoy. I decided the other day that my top 3 occupations are 1. music supervisor, 2. english/comp HS teacher, 3. architect. Haha, seriously? I'm such a scatter brain sometime.
But back to the topic at hand, London. I used to say I wanted to live in a big city for some time, the east coast, and some place mountainous. I always thought I'd end up in Chicago for some time, but after living in London... I feel like I'm fulfilling my big city craving. And it's incredible, but I couldn't settle here. I could see myself settling in the English countryside, but I am suffocated by the city. It's so weird being locked into a city, with only public transportation to get around; it's so different.
I've been dealing with a lot of amy issues that past month or so, involving people from home and myself. It's helped me figure out a lot. And I guess the best way to put it is that the people in my life that move me are doing just that, moving me. They're setting standards for every other person I meet in my life; and I like it.
I'm surrounding myself with the people that charge me; highlight who I am. I am just so incredibly anxious about moving forward.
Now I am going to write this paper.
I leave for Amsterdam in 2 days. Happy All Hallow's Eve!