Happy Valentine's Day!!! (ahem...where's my knight and shining armor?!?) haha :(
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!...okay, so I'm trying sooooo hard not to be bitter haha....its a struggle, but I'm trying! Vday does suck tho, for those of us who do not have a boyfriend....me, xtina and Suz were talkin bout it after school, haha, and laughing it off, but at the same time, the laughing was most definitely covering up the uncomfortable and lonely emotions that run through those of us who are with out boyfriends...but as Jaclyn said during lunch, "You can still be incredibly strong and single!" and I couldnt agree with you more! Although, its sooo easy to feel like that's impossible, when you want a boyfriend sooo badly, and when four of your close friends are with boyfriends, or relationships minus the exclusive title (ahem....MILLer) haha....but im happy for everyone who's spending tonight with someone special...I'm also iiiinnnnccccrrrreeeeddddiiiibbbbllllyyyy jealous of you all! grrrrr...lol
Nomatter what I say about, "I dont need a boyfriend!!!"....I still want one! Ohhh, how I want a boyfriend! I was talkin to Gav, and he was like, "Julz youare going to find an AMAZING boy, who you will be inlove with, and he'll see you for what you are...amazing" I looove Gavin! We're beginning to get close again, which is awesome, because we were soo close last year and during the summer...AHHH, I want a boyfriend who's gonna take me on a horse and buggie ride with his arms wrapped around me keeping me warm! This I expressed to Ms.Liza last night, to which i received the response, "Julz, you are the biggest DORK!!!...but i love you" haha....i know i know, i am a dork, but everyone has fantasy loooves right! And i guarantee you!!! that when i do have a boyfriend, we'll go on a horse and buggie ride, in the winter, and he'll keep me warm :)....ahh, haha, i cannot wait!!!
I came home, to find a beautiful, spectacular flower arrangement with a card that had my name on it! My daddy...haha, i loooove him soo much! He's sooo cute, he had this amazing flower arrangement made for me, with the flowers that I just aaadddooooorrrree and it made me smile! He got my mom this breathtaking box of flowers, that we stared at for about 30 minutes in awe...haha, he's away tho :( I'm soo sad about that....I hate when parents go on business trips! It's sooo scary, like, what if they dont come home...ahh, i dont want to think about that right now, so I'll change the subject!
Tomorrow is my brother's LAST DAY HOME before Australia...I am SOOO SCARED for him! haha, he's going away for 5 months, and he's living in an apartment with an American, a European, and an Australian...which ROCKS!!! Only, I am going to miss him soooooo much! I cant believe it too, because we used to fight like you wouldnt believe, but recently, we have gotten soooooo incredibly close and its amazing....unlike any relationship i've ever had with any other person in my life! I love my brother sooo much! We watched Napoleon Dynamite last night, and were both DYING laughing, and it was just sooo much fun! I LOOOOVE TO LAUGH! IT'S THE BEST PART OF LIFE!...Yeah, he's leaving on wednesday, and honestly, i just know I am going to be crying all day in school....soo embarrassing, definitely not looking forward to that time, I'm really nervous for him, and I have butterflies in my stomach like WWWWWWWWWWWOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Last night, I was driving home from the mall, and I started crying because I was thinking about him leaving....I think it's also just that I am sooo scared that like, I dunno, what if i dont see him ever again!!! It's a HORRIBLE feeling, and if i could do anything to not have it i would, but i guess its expected and inevitable right now...I always think that way now.....more than ever...I make sure to say I LOVE YOU to everyone who means something to me, after i get off of the phone w/ them, or when running out of the door in the morning, i make sure to say I LOVE YOU...you never know when it will be the last time you see those who you love more than life itself.....
Well, I have TONS of work to do! Happy Valentines Day once again, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO STEPH aka STEPPPHHHAAAANNNN THE GREAT :) ...ily!
Until Next Time...<3
Nomatter what I say about, "I dont need a boyfriend!!!"....I still want one! Ohhh, how I want a boyfriend! I was talkin to Gav, and he was like, "Julz youare going to find an AMAZING boy, who you will be inlove with, and he'll see you for what you are...amazing" I looove Gavin! We're beginning to get close again, which is awesome, because we were soo close last year and during the summer...AHHH, I want a boyfriend who's gonna take me on a horse and buggie ride with his arms wrapped around me keeping me warm! This I expressed to Ms.Liza last night, to which i received the response, "Julz, you are the biggest DORK!!!...but i love you" haha....i know i know, i am a dork, but everyone has fantasy loooves right! And i guarantee you!!! that when i do have a boyfriend, we'll go on a horse and buggie ride, in the winter, and he'll keep me warm :)....ahh, haha, i cannot wait!!!
I came home, to find a beautiful, spectacular flower arrangement with a card that had my name on it! My daddy...haha, i loooove him soo much! He's sooo cute, he had this amazing flower arrangement made for me, with the flowers that I just aaadddooooorrrree and it made me smile! He got my mom this breathtaking box of flowers, that we stared at for about 30 minutes in awe...haha, he's away tho :( I'm soo sad about that....I hate when parents go on business trips! It's sooo scary, like, what if they dont come home...ahh, i dont want to think about that right now, so I'll change the subject!
Tomorrow is my brother's LAST DAY HOME before Australia...I am SOOO SCARED for him! haha, he's going away for 5 months, and he's living in an apartment with an American, a European, and an Australian...which ROCKS!!! Only, I am going to miss him soooooo much! I cant believe it too, because we used to fight like you wouldnt believe, but recently, we have gotten soooooo incredibly close and its amazing....unlike any relationship i've ever had with any other person in my life! I love my brother sooo much! We watched Napoleon Dynamite last night, and were both DYING laughing, and it was just sooo much fun! I LOOOOVE TO LAUGH! IT'S THE BEST PART OF LIFE!...Yeah, he's leaving on wednesday, and honestly, i just know I am going to be crying all day in school....soo embarrassing, definitely not looking forward to that time, I'm really nervous for him, and I have butterflies in my stomach like WWWWWWWWWWWOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Last night, I was driving home from the mall, and I started crying because I was thinking about him leaving....I think it's also just that I am sooo scared that like, I dunno, what if i dont see him ever again!!! It's a HORRIBLE feeling, and if i could do anything to not have it i would, but i guess its expected and inevitable right now...I always think that way now.....more than ever...I make sure to say I LOVE YOU to everyone who means something to me, after i get off of the phone w/ them, or when running out of the door in the morning, i make sure to say I LOVE YOU...you never know when it will be the last time you see those who you love more than life itself.....
Well, I have TONS of work to do! Happy Valentines Day once again, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO STEPH aka STEPPPHHHAAAANNNN THE GREAT :) ...ily!
Until Next Time...<3