There are only a few things keeping me here

[everyhit]

There are only a few things keeping me here...
If it weren't for them, I would have tried harder to leave.

So many complaints.  I'm starting to see things in a whole new perspective now. Every trivial complaint I hear now just makes me dislike a person more because their problems are so..."oh..my gosh! she yelled at me because or (insert a bunch of bullshit)" compared to the real problems I have to hear and see everyday.

I can't help but get mad at her for all the shit she gets herself -into and what she's involuntarily doing to me- just like how I cant help but forgive her afterwards.

My friends piss me off. no forgiveness.

My grans is doing worse. i became more aware, especially after an incident the other night.
All i could do was stand back and watch because i was so scared.
I'm useless.
I probably would have started crying if i was alone.

I look at my father and..id rather not.

I don't like looking at the people I love anymore because it hurts so fucking much to see so much pain.

Lately, I've been feeling like everything was a waste of time and effort.

I don't want to go back to school. I'm barely home and when i do its only to sleep.

Sorry, I've been switching subjects without going too deep into one so frequently.
My brain is so scattered right now.

I really wish I could talk to one person right now because he always makes me forget.

Man.  What I would do for some stupid weed right now.