you'll remember the guy who said all those big words he must have learned in college
the long awaited courtney entry:
Firstly, we have been going out for a year and two months now, and i think everyone at least knows a little bit about the thing we tried to do, our open-relationship. yeah, it was going alright for a while, but we very nearly broke up over, in fact, i think we may have broken up for a few minutes, but we are done with that. i was certain it would work, i even had logic behind it: everyone seems to break up over dumb little crushes that ultimately fail just the same, so i figured, if one of us had a big crush on someone, instead of just breaking up over it and realizing it was a mistake, you could just start to get to know the person you have a crush on, kiss them if need be, and live out the crush while still dating the other person, that way you would always be evaluating your relationship and you would know that you are with the person you want to be with. However, as good as that sounded on paper, it ultimately failed, and just lead to jealous on both of our parts, so after a lot of fighting and debating about our relationship, we decided to stay together and get rid of the open-relationship thing. Even though i think we both still have a little repress jealousy about it, we are much much better now.
I think the first time we knew that we would be together for a long time was at austin's house before we were dating. We were in one of the rooms upstairs and everyone probably thought we were making out or something, but we were just lying down talking and slowly scooting closer to each other and rubbing feet, which was probably one of the top 5 days of my life. i think she would agree.
when we first started dating, i felt like i was invincible. i truly was in love. (i don't mean to put it in past tense like it isn't still like that, i'm just using the correct tense.) One of my favorite memories of her is when she had surgery on her jaw, like, they sawed bones apart and filed them down and glued her back together, i forget exactly, but it was insane. i got to visit her at home shortly after the surgery, and she was soooooo cute. her head was all wrapped up, and she couldn't talk and her jaw was wired shut. so i bought her a magnadoodle so we could communicate. then when she got to take off the bandages her cheeks were so puffy, it was probably the cutest i've ever seen. she looked like a chipmunk, and, honestly, that's when i knew i was in love with her. and i got to watch her suck her vitamin fluid through her wired shut jaw, slurping through her teeth, lol. that was such a strange month or so. but i loved it, i got to stay with her a lot of the time. i told her i was going to bring her apple sauce and a big arby's straw so she could eat, but i never did, sorry courtney, lol.
On our six month anniversary, we went to olive Garden, which would soon become one of the top three memories for both of us. i sort of forget what happened, lol, but i will tell what i can remember. we had to wait something like 45 minutes for a table, so we went to borders. then when ran back there to get our seats, and, well, long story short, we were sitting at that table for a good 4 hours... without food. they kept apparently forgetting to bring out food out, or cook it or something. so we FINALLY get out food, and they gave courtney the wrong order. but like a trooper, she ate it, and they offered us a free dessert for our troubles, which i really didn't think was enough being that after 4 hours thet brought us the wrong meal. so after they knocked the bill down a little more, they forget to bring us our bill, so the manager just told us to leave. it was fun. then we decided on our one year anniversary we would go back to Olive Garden and waltz or like, slasa dance or ballroom dance or something through the restaurant, but we never learned how, so we just went back and ate food. (for the whole story, go to my journal on july 18th, http://www.livejournal.com/users/everydayhope/2004/07/18/)
Now that we are over those rough times, i think we are so much stronger than i could ever imagine. i am back to that feeling of bliss when i'm with her. that's not to say i didn't love her while we were fighting, but it's a lot harder to feel euphoric with someone when you are constantly fighting. We still fight (like last night) but they are little fights that we get over. I am more confident than ever that we are going to make it through my freshman year in college. i'm using my sister as inspiration, because her freshman year in college, her boyfriend went to Marquette, which is literally like 20 minutes from the very top of the UP. She drove up there every weekend to see him, and they are still together, so i really think a 90 minutes drive every weekend is nothing.
I also decided the other day that aside from always saying i love her, i really do like her. I feel like everyone says i love you, but i don't think it really has the same effect. Courtney, i like you a lot. I really enjoy being with you, and a day at school without you is hardly a day at all; if you are willing to try like hell to get through this next year, being that it's going to be pretty rough, i am. I'll hitchhike home to see you if i have to. i'm not going to let being 90 minutes apart break us up, i LIKE like you.
sorry to anyone who didn't really care, but i think courtney has been feeling unwanted and unappreciated lately, so courtney, this is for you, because i love you more than ever, and that only grows everyday we're together. I'm sorry for the times we fight, but it just makes us love one another more afterward. Here's to another 14 months, and 70 years after that, because when it comes down to it, you really make me happier than i could possibly be with anyone else. i hope i return the favor.
Firstly, we have been going out for a year and two months now, and i think everyone at least knows a little bit about the thing we tried to do, our open-relationship. yeah, it was going alright for a while, but we very nearly broke up over, in fact, i think we may have broken up for a few minutes, but we are done with that. i was certain it would work, i even had logic behind it: everyone seems to break up over dumb little crushes that ultimately fail just the same, so i figured, if one of us had a big crush on someone, instead of just breaking up over it and realizing it was a mistake, you could just start to get to know the person you have a crush on, kiss them if need be, and live out the crush while still dating the other person, that way you would always be evaluating your relationship and you would know that you are with the person you want to be with. However, as good as that sounded on paper, it ultimately failed, and just lead to jealous on both of our parts, so after a lot of fighting and debating about our relationship, we decided to stay together and get rid of the open-relationship thing. Even though i think we both still have a little repress jealousy about it, we are much much better now.
I think the first time we knew that we would be together for a long time was at austin's house before we were dating. We were in one of the rooms upstairs and everyone probably thought we were making out or something, but we were just lying down talking and slowly scooting closer to each other and rubbing feet, which was probably one of the top 5 days of my life. i think she would agree.
when we first started dating, i felt like i was invincible. i truly was in love. (i don't mean to put it in past tense like it isn't still like that, i'm just using the correct tense.) One of my favorite memories of her is when she had surgery on her jaw, like, they sawed bones apart and filed them down and glued her back together, i forget exactly, but it was insane. i got to visit her at home shortly after the surgery, and she was soooooo cute. her head was all wrapped up, and she couldn't talk and her jaw was wired shut. so i bought her a magnadoodle so we could communicate. then when she got to take off the bandages her cheeks were so puffy, it was probably the cutest i've ever seen. she looked like a chipmunk, and, honestly, that's when i knew i was in love with her. and i got to watch her suck her vitamin fluid through her wired shut jaw, slurping through her teeth, lol. that was such a strange month or so. but i loved it, i got to stay with her a lot of the time. i told her i was going to bring her apple sauce and a big arby's straw so she could eat, but i never did, sorry courtney, lol.
On our six month anniversary, we went to olive Garden, which would soon become one of the top three memories for both of us. i sort of forget what happened, lol, but i will tell what i can remember. we had to wait something like 45 minutes for a table, so we went to borders. then when ran back there to get our seats, and, well, long story short, we were sitting at that table for a good 4 hours... without food. they kept apparently forgetting to bring out food out, or cook it or something. so we FINALLY get out food, and they gave courtney the wrong order. but like a trooper, she ate it, and they offered us a free dessert for our troubles, which i really didn't think was enough being that after 4 hours thet brought us the wrong meal. so after they knocked the bill down a little more, they forget to bring us our bill, so the manager just told us to leave. it was fun. then we decided on our one year anniversary we would go back to Olive Garden and waltz or like, slasa dance or ballroom dance or something through the restaurant, but we never learned how, so we just went back and ate food. (for the whole story, go to my journal on july 18th, http://www.livejournal.com/users/everydayhope/2004/07/18/)
Now that we are over those rough times, i think we are so much stronger than i could ever imagine. i am back to that feeling of bliss when i'm with her. that's not to say i didn't love her while we were fighting, but it's a lot harder to feel euphoric with someone when you are constantly fighting. We still fight (like last night) but they are little fights that we get over. I am more confident than ever that we are going to make it through my freshman year in college. i'm using my sister as inspiration, because her freshman year in college, her boyfriend went to Marquette, which is literally like 20 minutes from the very top of the UP. She drove up there every weekend to see him, and they are still together, so i really think a 90 minutes drive every weekend is nothing.
I also decided the other day that aside from always saying i love her, i really do like her. I feel like everyone says i love you, but i don't think it really has the same effect. Courtney, i like you a lot. I really enjoy being with you, and a day at school without you is hardly a day at all; if you are willing to try like hell to get through this next year, being that it's going to be pretty rough, i am. I'll hitchhike home to see you if i have to. i'm not going to let being 90 minutes apart break us up, i LIKE like you.
sorry to anyone who didn't really care, but i think courtney has been feeling unwanted and unappreciated lately, so courtney, this is for you, because i love you more than ever, and that only grows everyday we're together. I'm sorry for the times we fight, but it just makes us love one another more afterward. Here's to another 14 months, and 70 years after that, because when it comes down to it, you really make me happier than i could possibly be with anyone else. i hope i return the favor.