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I've been trying really hard to eat better and exercise more... Whenever I do these things, even for a short amount of time, I'm always amazed at how much better I feel overall. I do not want to be a sad, pessimistic, drained, little creature who grows more obese by the day just lying in bed on the laptop... I've also been inspired to work on my own business with the goal of living off my massage career by the time I turn 30. Which, if I have to remind anyone, is at the end of THIS YEAR. I feel that it's time for a very big change in my life. I started looking at myself and my life and while some things are perfect and should never change, others I've overlooked, pushed aside or just plain ignored. I have been operating under the false assumption for far too long that I can just sit back and let whatever is "supposed to happen" happen. Meanwhile, people who are actually using their energy to better themselves and their lives leap forward into personal/vocational success and even joy... I love the work I do at Springbrook, I love the kids, I love most of my co-workers, but I've been working in direct care for seven years now and it's always the same thing: I love the people and hate all the circumstances. I hate having to work until 11:15pm, I hate getting mandated, I hate having to wonder if I will be able to get time off for things that are really important to me, I hate having to worry that someone is going to write me up or even suspend me for forgetting one detail out of ten million that I'm supposed to remember off the top of my head... But for the all the things I can find to bitch about, there are a lot of benefits that I'm scared to give up. Paid vacation and sick time, $750 on a debit card each year for medical expenses, and of course: stable money. It may be a lot less than a typical Massage Therapist's salary, buuuuut at least I know it's coming. I can't use it as a crutch forever. I know eventually I'll have to take a big risk to make a big change. I have a lot of things to look into, a lot of marketing to do, things to buy, people to talk to, etc. I want the dream business I've been planning in my journals for years and years... A community center where massage, health, activism, education, fun, love and inclusion (to name a few) are the priorities. I can see it all. I have so many ideas... For workshops, the space itself, how to staff it, events I want to hold, other professionals I want to work with... So. Long story short: Big ideas need big energy. I have roughly eight months. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaand GO!!!!!!!!!