Eh the story of my life
Do you ever feel as if you are going to cry, but your not going to cry, you just cant breath?….
I dont understand why everybody thinks they know how I feel but truly none of them care/know... Why do I keep setting my self up for a BIG let down?.. Why do I keep letting people in, so they that they can just walk away and never talk to me ever again, like nothing ever happened.
It is like I have the touch of death and no one wants to hold my hand... I just feel as if wont ever be able to feel what love is really all about. Its either a another girl that comes into the pitcher or they dont want a relationship they only someone to mess around with when its good for them.
Nobody ever see the side of Kate when she is unhappy its like I am not a loud to be hurt. I am only here to pick up everyone elses life. No buddy ever sees it face to face that I am unhappy....
Well I am telling you all right now... I am NOT happy, its all an act just to keep everyone away from me. I always have to be happy because, it works out better for everyone else... Because when I do open up to people they have things that are sooo much worse then mine...
WeLL….
You know what, you should be happy that you have had your heart broken,
That you know what love is, even if it didnt work out in the long run,
You should be happy you wont have to just sit back and wonder what if, because you went out and tried it...
Because you know what I have never been in love never had my heart broken, I will only be able to sit there and think what if this happened what if that happened.... I would rather try something and not have it work out. Then to think what if... because the what ifs are really start to kill me...
99% of the time I am working to hard on making other people happy, and I am forgetting about myself... But soon I will need to learn to put myself first... Get myself out there meet new people cuz the people now just dont do it for me.... I just really need to do whatever it takes to make ME happy and not YOU happy.
I dont know if anything will ever change but I like to think it will... TO make me happy, maybe find some love OR ANYTHING.... and get my life back on track because I really dont know what I want to do with my life in the long run.
I dont understand why everybody thinks they know how I feel but truly none of them care/know... Why do I keep setting my self up for a BIG let down?.. Why do I keep letting people in, so they that they can just walk away and never talk to me ever again, like nothing ever happened.
It is like I have the touch of death and no one wants to hold my hand... I just feel as if wont ever be able to feel what love is really all about. Its either a another girl that comes into the pitcher or they dont want a relationship they only someone to mess around with when its good for them.
Nobody ever see the side of Kate when she is unhappy its like I am not a loud to be hurt. I am only here to pick up everyone elses life. No buddy ever sees it face to face that I am unhappy....
Well I am telling you all right now... I am NOT happy, its all an act just to keep everyone away from me. I always have to be happy because, it works out better for everyone else... Because when I do open up to people they have things that are sooo much worse then mine...
WeLL….
You know what, you should be happy that you have had your heart broken,
That you know what love is, even if it didnt work out in the long run,
You should be happy you wont have to just sit back and wonder what if, because you went out and tried it...
Because you know what I have never been in love never had my heart broken, I will only be able to sit there and think what if this happened what if that happened.... I would rather try something and not have it work out. Then to think what if... because the what ifs are really start to kill me...
99% of the time I am working to hard on making other people happy, and I am forgetting about myself... But soon I will need to learn to put myself first... Get myself out there meet new people cuz the people now just dont do it for me.... I just really need to do whatever it takes to make ME happy and not YOU happy.
I dont know if anything will ever change but I like to think it will... TO make me happy, maybe find some love OR ANYTHING.... and get my life back on track because I really dont know what I want to do with my life in the long run.