seasons of life
i've been meaning to write this for awhile, actually just after that last OCF meeting, but you know how exams come in the way of things and i lost the feeling. But now, apparently, sitting at home sick and realizing exactly how much of life is passing me by..i think that feeling just came back. What is that feeling? The feeling that everything around me is changing, how we're all growing older. and every year that we grow and hopefully mature things around us are growing older and we're all being separated, sometimes never to see each other again. How do i know this? Well, grandparents passing away is one very obvious change. I guess it was going to happen, but at the same time it seemed so far away. And yet it happens, every year we grow older, we're probably losing another year with them. The same goes with parents, don't you realize how old they're getting? Although i never fail to remind my parents how old they're getting, still it's discomforting being able to see over their heads, to realize they're greying/balding, getting weaker and all that. And here i was stuck in my fairytale where they would always be there and always teaching and guiding me. Evidently not forever. And of course, graduations. Maybe it's because i'm overseas, and we all seem to come from different parts of the world, okay not that different, but far enough yes? And it's the sudden realization that there are some people that i'm never going to see again, EVER again? or maybe for a long period of time? who knows, but it won't be the same and i'll miss them. Like seriously miss them, which is totally weird, cause we have facebook and all right? But you know what? it's not the same, not being able to talk, smile, share a knowing look all these things we need to have face to face interaction! :) and so it's with a heavy heart and tears in my eyes that i have said goodbye, albeit not formally, but yes goodbye for now? :(
and so song of the moment/song to dedicate (which i really wanted to add to that message/photo book thingy but realized it would be too cheesy/girly) was:
(Elphaba):
I'm limited
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you
You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
For both of us - now it's up to you...
(Glinda):
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you...
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good
(Elphaba):
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
(Glinda):
Because I knew you
(Both):
I have been changed for good
(Elphaba):
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for
(Glinda):
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share
(Both):
And none of it seems to matter anymore
(Glinda):
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
(Elphaba):
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood
(Both):
Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better
(Glinda):
And because I knew you...
(Elphaba):
Because I knew you...
(Both):
Because I knew you...
I have been changed for good...
yesh, from my favourtie musical WICKED the song - for good.
and i realized i shook a hand when really i should have hugged the person. :( i blame society and weird rules for that.
and so song of the moment/song to dedicate (which i really wanted to add to that message/photo book thingy but realized it would be too cheesy/girly) was:
(Elphaba):
I'm limited
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you
You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
For both of us - now it's up to you...
(Glinda):
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you...
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good
(Elphaba):
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
(Glinda):
Because I knew you
(Both):
I have been changed for good
(Elphaba):
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for
(Glinda):
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share
(Both):
And none of it seems to matter anymore
(Glinda):
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
(Elphaba):
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood
(Both):
Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better
(Glinda):
And because I knew you...
(Elphaba):
Because I knew you...
(Both):
Because I knew you...
I have been changed for good...
yesh, from my favourtie musical WICKED the song - for good.
and i realized i shook a hand when really i should have hugged the person. :( i blame society and weird rules for that.