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I walked into school today, first thing in the morning and bright eyed, ready for another day. My heart fell before I even walked through the door and everything I've hated for so long came running back to my mind. Why is it that this always happens to me? Friends aren't really friends and I'm sickened by this middle school bullshit. I shouldn't have to deal with this.
I had plans for relaxation in the hours between school and work, but as it turns out, I was needed to come in as soon as possible. So I did, and having only recently gotten home, I've hardly had time to settle into something and it's so hard to pretend.
I am consumed with this deep in the cell of my heart kind of emotion. It's every emotion, rolled into one hurtling meteor of mess and I'm just waiting for it to come crashing down on me.
I couldn't put more emphasis on the words I'm writing in any way to possibly display the things that are running through my head lately.