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... there are things on my mind... most of which has to do w/ the fact that i am stuck in my house w/o a car... i really miss my car... it should be getting better though... and i don't have the words to put my thoughts down on the this medium... you need to see me for me to be able to speak them... which won't really happen b/c of the afformentioned car issue... I am bothered, on some level... and i hurt, but i am not sure why or for what real reason... I doubt most of the things that go on around me, including but not limited to the relationship i am in... but i don't know why i doubt it... is it just b/c things are different then how i know them... each person is different... but i still worry... is it b/c i am beginning to really feel something... i am not sure... but i don't know if i can let myself really, for all that leads to is pain... where i don't want to go into that type of pain again... even if this could be different, can i let it be different?... or is what has happened to me... how i have let others affect me, become the issue here?... There are so many things running around in my brain...
but instead, i am up at 6:30 tomorrow morning in order to work for a moving company b/c i need more cash for the car, which has led to me not being able to go out and see people, and instead stuck home...
so yeah... thoughts running through my brain... none of which really worked themselves out w/ this..
but instead, i am up at 6:30 tomorrow morning in order to work for a moving company b/c i need more cash for the car, which has led to me not being able to go out and see people, and instead stuck home...
so yeah... thoughts running through my brain... none of which really worked themselves out w/ this..