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i dont know if i want to make this private or public yet...i guess whatever i choose ill have to live with the consequences... so i am officially a single girl...sure the people closest to me could say ive been single for over a month now, but as of yesterday, to me, ive been single. its weird to think about everything that im going to go through in my life right now, im going to do it on my own. sure, my friends and family will be with me, but not him. going to school is a drag now because i was looking forward to being at the same college as him again, concerts dont look as much fun, the aids walk is on October 15 and i dont have someone there to walk with me and support me like i did last year. its hard to think of doing everything by myself.
its hard because i feel as though i lost a part of myself because of this stupid ass summer. I lost the person i loved most in the world. And its especially hard that he thinks its 100% my fault and refuses to talk to me, to try and put things right between us. Not so we can have a dating relationship, but so we can still just have a relationship with each other. I Love him so much and i hate the fact that after our conversation yesterday, we'll probably never speak to each other again. That after 2.5 years of dating and everything that comes with it, we can't even be friends.
as much as i want to be sad right now, i know i have to be twice as strong. I know i have a great group of friends and ill get through this. and if he ever does want to talk and build a friendship again, im here.
its hard because i feel as though i lost a part of myself because of this stupid ass summer. I lost the person i loved most in the world. And its especially hard that he thinks its 100% my fault and refuses to talk to me, to try and put things right between us. Not so we can have a dating relationship, but so we can still just have a relationship with each other. I Love him so much and i hate the fact that after our conversation yesterday, we'll probably never speak to each other again. That after 2.5 years of dating and everything that comes with it, we can't even be friends.
as much as i want to be sad right now, i know i have to be twice as strong. I know i have a great group of friends and ill get through this. and if he ever does want to talk and build a friendship again, im here.