(no subject)
Well I still have yet to find a job. I spend hours searching and then applying. I have this method where if I don't really like the job, but it would pay the bills I don't send a cover letter. I then find other jobs that I would absolutely love to do so I spend hours writing a cover letter. My inbox is filled with "Thank you for your application. We will contact you. Please do not reply. This is a computer generated response." I dread that last comment. I would love to talk to a person but apparently we don't do that anymore due to the internet and all its wonders. I'm a people person. I live in the wrong era people! I don't want to talk to a computer; I want a person! Anyway I did find a babysitting job two days a week sometimes more. The pay is great. The kids are loud and fun. I'm in my element. I wish this was considered a real job. It is to me, but I am still looking for a steady income. I started looking at graduate schools for a masters in Creative Writing. I enjoy writing but I'm semi-afraid of what others think of it. I really don't want to hear negative feedback because I believe anyone's thoughts is a work of art. So I'm having second thoughts of this masters. I just feel kind of idle even though the kids/siblings keep me really busy as well as the parents with different woes of life. It's like I'm stuck in this alter time zone where I'm existing but not fully breathing. The hours I spend searching for jobs, hours spent with the fam, hours spent babysitting, leave me but moments to myself. Moments I would like to write but I'm so tired from everything else around me. My only outlet of late has been late night hour long chats with a fellow whom also shares a lack of job but enjoys hours of reading and writing. He brings a spark to my night after hours of keeping up with the chaos around me I have an hour or so to collect my thoughts and relay them to someone whom also understands. So that is all that is new. I haven't written in this in so long. I hope everyone in my journaling community is doing well and I'm sorry if I haven't called in awhile. I've been busy existing to say the least!