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So tomorrow I take my last exam as an undergraduate and I have yet to study. I am certain the longer I'm in school the more I careless because you learn there are so many better things to care about. Anyway I'm sure I'll pass. I just need to focus for 2 hours and then take it. I can't seem to focus. I'm still jet lagged from the plane ride back from Oregon. Oregon is beautiful, however the many twists and turns to get to Mimi's house made my tummy ill. She lives in this awesome house in the mountains and it is quite an amazing sight. Her wedding was awesome. It was outside and the men and boys carried organic herbs and the women and girls carried organic flowers. We stood in a circle around Mimi and Michael and we each took a flower and placed it in a bowl and said what we wanted for their marriage that our dad carried the bowl up while they stood on the rug they had made that her mom carried up. Everyone was incorporated. The birds flew up above the blue sky with nature surrounding us overall a touching ceremony.
It was wonderful to be all together. We didn't fight too much and we had fun destroying our hotel rooms the girls in one room and boys and parents in the other. It made me want to go home. I miss the chaos of them. I've been alone all day and night here in Columbus b/c my aunt and uncle are out of town and Brendan is every where but here, which is fine. I just don't like being alone. I've never been nor do I ever wish to be. At first I thought that this was something bad but now I don't think so anymore. I was raised with many people around me and I like that comfort. I could be around a bunch of strangers as long as I have people surrounding me I'm happy.
Gosh I should study.
Anyway I graduate on Sunday. I have no job but I have a degree. I think I will go home since I haven't found anything here not even waitressing. I'm going to save up and live at home for a few months maybe a year and then see where I decide to go. I just need to get some bills down and my loans figured out and then I can start doing what I want to do. I'm not really sure what I want right now. I want a job that I love but no one gets that right away I suppose.
I'm going to study nothing is going to be solved tonight except that.
Good night!
It was wonderful to be all together. We didn't fight too much and we had fun destroying our hotel rooms the girls in one room and boys and parents in the other. It made me want to go home. I miss the chaos of them. I've been alone all day and night here in Columbus b/c my aunt and uncle are out of town and Brendan is every where but here, which is fine. I just don't like being alone. I've never been nor do I ever wish to be. At first I thought that this was something bad but now I don't think so anymore. I was raised with many people around me and I like that comfort. I could be around a bunch of strangers as long as I have people surrounding me I'm happy.
Gosh I should study.
Anyway I graduate on Sunday. I have no job but I have a degree. I think I will go home since I haven't found anything here not even waitressing. I'm going to save up and live at home for a few months maybe a year and then see where I decide to go. I just need to get some bills down and my loans figured out and then I can start doing what I want to do. I'm not really sure what I want right now. I want a job that I love but no one gets that right away I suppose.
I'm going to study nothing is going to be solved tonight except that.
Good night!