but everybody wants me to be just like them.
summer.
"leaves are falling all around
time i was on my way
thanks to you; im much obliged
such a pleasant stay
and now its time for me to go
the autumn moon lights my way ..."
zeppelin
i have this really pretty bra: its kelly green (not rizoli) and has primary color blue lace on the top of it.
no matter which song it is that i pick to put on, it makes me miss my friends from here.
and IM STILL HERE.
i was crying listening to "maggies farm," for Gods sake.
and the rage against the machine version, even.
i feel like, when i say things like that, no one knows what im talking about.
i ended a sentence in "about".
twice.
tonight, we saw "little miss sunshine".
i went with benson and erika.
i think that benson is so great; he is interesting and hilarious.
and when were together we just CANNOT talk to each other.
its bizarre and unfair and its always so awfully akward.
and he made me sad because, in his exact words, hes "not coming back to natick".
not after winter break, really, anyway.
i will never get a chance to be comfortable with him.
and i am not going to get to see andrea and erika and kerry and scotty and everyone every day.
and i already cant see derek every day; its sad that hes such a good friend and he has to leave first every time.
and there are so many people whom i love, here.
i look in the mirror and, much of the time, i dont like it.
when i got the contiki travel brochure in the mail the other day, i got SO happy just looking at it.
i feel called to travel and to seeing things the way that some people are called to medicine or art (me, once?).
i bought pretty cheap nail polish-both pretty and cheap.
maybe ill wear it for the concert, tomorrow.
i hope that it doesnt rain.
i hope that my car stops having things wrong with it (it never will).
i hope that i dont fall apart.
i hope that schools good.
i hope that my sister gets home safe.
i hope that summer never ends because i hate not being home when i could be home.
something is wrong with me.
i love this being here.
i feel infinite every night.
i dont know what else to say.
i love you all.
"leaves are falling all around
time i was on my way
thanks to you; im much obliged
such a pleasant stay
and now its time for me to go
the autumn moon lights my way ..."
zeppelin
i have this really pretty bra: its kelly green (not rizoli) and has primary color blue lace on the top of it.
no matter which song it is that i pick to put on, it makes me miss my friends from here.
and IM STILL HERE.
i was crying listening to "maggies farm," for Gods sake.
and the rage against the machine version, even.
i feel like, when i say things like that, no one knows what im talking about.
i ended a sentence in "about".
twice.
tonight, we saw "little miss sunshine".
i went with benson and erika.
i think that benson is so great; he is interesting and hilarious.
and when were together we just CANNOT talk to each other.
its bizarre and unfair and its always so awfully akward.
and he made me sad because, in his exact words, hes "not coming back to natick".
not after winter break, really, anyway.
i will never get a chance to be comfortable with him.
and i am not going to get to see andrea and erika and kerry and scotty and everyone every day.
and i already cant see derek every day; its sad that hes such a good friend and he has to leave first every time.
and there are so many people whom i love, here.
i look in the mirror and, much of the time, i dont like it.
when i got the contiki travel brochure in the mail the other day, i got SO happy just looking at it.
i feel called to travel and to seeing things the way that some people are called to medicine or art (me, once?).
i bought pretty cheap nail polish-both pretty and cheap.
maybe ill wear it for the concert, tomorrow.
i hope that it doesnt rain.
i hope that my car stops having things wrong with it (it never will).
i hope that i dont fall apart.
i hope that schools good.
i hope that my sister gets home safe.
i hope that summer never ends because i hate not being home when i could be home.
something is wrong with me.
i love this being here.
i feel infinite every night.
i dont know what else to say.
i love you all.