This is it.
So, okay, I'm willing to admit that this has not been my year. Between family problems, health problems, and computer problems I'm completely prepared to write off 2008 as bad luck. The truth of the matter is that I'm trying to tough it through, because the one thing I refuse to do is bitch and whine and wait for people to stumble over themselves to pet my hair and make it better. I've made an executive decision to be independent, to take care of myself, and to be stoic in the face of continual disappointment.
Last night I hit a wall. My computer, which has been in and out of repair since November (it's barely over a year old) suffered massive disc failure last night. In short, the hard drive failed. HP is sending me a new hard drive to put in myself which, what the hell people? Also, they do not offer recovery services. I would be fine with all of this, but I have one major problem - my recovery drive has not been updated for over a month. This means that the data that I had on my computer for the show I'm stage managing (over 20 hours of real-time work) is gone. My new resume is gone. All of my photos of May Day, Graduation, Boston, and my time here in San Francisco are gone. I know what you all are saying - this is my fault, I'm the moron who doesn't back everything up immediately, this is karma and you should suck it up and deal. I can't. I have reached a point where I cannot have another thing like this happen to me and just deal with it. I'm tired of brushing off having my computer gutted and returned to me. I'm tired of shaking myself apart worrying about my dead grandmother, my sick uncle, my seizing aunt. I can't be okay with any of this any more.
So I'm asking for help. I'm going to a hard drive recovery place and seeing what they can get off of my laptop before I return the broken drive to HP. The problem is that the price range on doing so is $200 - $2900.
What I want is, honestly, not worth more than $400, but I doubt that I'll be lucky enough for it to be that cheap. I hate asking for stuff, and I don't want to be that greedy bitch expecting hand outs, but I've seen the wonderful things that people on livejournal, and in fandom, are capable of. I know I'm not anyone, and that I'm not a known name, I'm unimportant, but I'm out here by myself in San Francisco, getting paid $250 a week and trying to live off it and every penny counts. I can't ask for money, or for financial help, but I am asking, now, for support in whatever way people are willing to give it.
I just, I need help right now and I'm not sure where I can get it or how. I hate asking, but I've hit my upper limit and I can't keep doing this alone.
Last night I hit a wall. My computer, which has been in and out of repair since November (it's barely over a year old) suffered massive disc failure last night. In short, the hard drive failed. HP is sending me a new hard drive to put in myself which, what the hell people? Also, they do not offer recovery services. I would be fine with all of this, but I have one major problem - my recovery drive has not been updated for over a month. This means that the data that I had on my computer for the show I'm stage managing (over 20 hours of real-time work) is gone. My new resume is gone. All of my photos of May Day, Graduation, Boston, and my time here in San Francisco are gone. I know what you all are saying - this is my fault, I'm the moron who doesn't back everything up immediately, this is karma and you should suck it up and deal. I can't. I have reached a point where I cannot have another thing like this happen to me and just deal with it. I'm tired of brushing off having my computer gutted and returned to me. I'm tired of shaking myself apart worrying about my dead grandmother, my sick uncle, my seizing aunt. I can't be okay with any of this any more.
So I'm asking for help. I'm going to a hard drive recovery place and seeing what they can get off of my laptop before I return the broken drive to HP. The problem is that the price range on doing so is $200 - $2900.
What I want is, honestly, not worth more than $400, but I doubt that I'll be lucky enough for it to be that cheap. I hate asking for stuff, and I don't want to be that greedy bitch expecting hand outs, but I've seen the wonderful things that people on livejournal, and in fandom, are capable of. I know I'm not anyone, and that I'm not a known name, I'm unimportant, but I'm out here by myself in San Francisco, getting paid $250 a week and trying to live off it and every penny counts. I can't ask for money, or for financial help, but I am asking, now, for support in whatever way people are willing to give it.
I just, I need help right now and I'm not sure where I can get it or how. I hate asking, but I've hit my upper limit and I can't keep doing this alone.