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sometimes i wonder what i am doing sharing my life with someone, when i am so in love with someone else?
i care about charlie, i absolutely adore him and i see things in him that i know i was ALWAYS meant to have- but i am not in love with him, and he is not in love with me
we cant even commit ourselves to anything, after all this time- we just float around not being sure of each other, but not being sure of each other, together
maybe it will happen eventually, maybe we'll reach that point some day?
but as for now, we dont know each other- we dont KNOW each other, the way that i am so used to being known
i understand now, what that "connection" was, and why you needed it so badly
and it is baffling to think that we were so much closer than we had ever been, and now we will never be more far apart-
you hang around my life like the air i breathe,
it is always so constant, and so essential that i just dont question it anymore
(i am starting to think the freckles on my shoulder were fate from the start-
we were a boat that was always meant to be lost at sea)
i care about charlie, i absolutely adore him and i see things in him that i know i was ALWAYS meant to have- but i am not in love with him, and he is not in love with me
we cant even commit ourselves to anything, after all this time- we just float around not being sure of each other, but not being sure of each other, together
maybe it will happen eventually, maybe we'll reach that point some day?
but as for now, we dont know each other- we dont KNOW each other, the way that i am so used to being known
i understand now, what that "connection" was, and why you needed it so badly
and it is baffling to think that we were so much closer than we had ever been, and now we will never be more far apart-
you hang around my life like the air i breathe,
it is always so constant, and so essential that i just dont question it anymore
(i am starting to think the freckles on my shoulder were fate from the start-
we were a boat that was always meant to be lost at sea)