in transit
Well, here I am sitting in the Vancouver airport, jealously guarding one of the very few plug ins for my laptop. My uncle mentioned that power plugs may not be available on this flight, so I'm taking the chance and charging my laptop while I can. Here's hoping he just doesn't know anything about economy, though!
I guess I've now said all my goodbyes, so only hellos are on the horizon. I'm more exhausted and less emotional than I thought I would be, and I'm okay with that. Being exhausted is better than being emotional right now, also because if I was emotional, I'd be a big bawling mess. Not necessarily about the goodbyes, because I know I'll see everyone again, but because I have no idea what I'm doing with myself here. I'm leaving everything I know, and going to a country which may feel like home, but certainly isn't. As similar as Canada and Australia may be, they are still very different, and I forget that. So...? I love so much about Canada, and appreciate Vancouver in whole new ways, and adore Revelstoke's simplicity and gentle nature. Life is easy, here in Canada, without complications of health insurance, figuring out taxes when I'm eventually earning money, stressing about getting a job and how I'm going to stay in Sydney, if I can stay in Sydney.
Then again, where do I want to be right now, if not right here? Yes, curled up in bed at my parents' house sounds blissful, but clearly one can't remain in cossetted down duvet cocoons forever. I guess I'm just a bit dismayed that, in general, I'm feeling a bit clueless about everything right now. Graduation is supposed to affirm how much you do know, not how much you don't know, right? I can follow intellectual conversations with the best of them, but I just don't feel critically engaged in any way. I spend more time thinking about how I'm going to decorate the apartment, probably.
Boarding has crept up on me; I better let this baby charge before hopping on that plane! Egads. Here's to turning over a new leaf, entering a different part of my life, learning new things and being reminded of old. Yes, things are gonna change, but I don't want them to stay the same forever, either. And so... I get on a plane and fly across the world.
I guess I've now said all my goodbyes, so only hellos are on the horizon. I'm more exhausted and less emotional than I thought I would be, and I'm okay with that. Being exhausted is better than being emotional right now, also because if I was emotional, I'd be a big bawling mess. Not necessarily about the goodbyes, because I know I'll see everyone again, but because I have no idea what I'm doing with myself here. I'm leaving everything I know, and going to a country which may feel like home, but certainly isn't. As similar as Canada and Australia may be, they are still very different, and I forget that. So...? I love so much about Canada, and appreciate Vancouver in whole new ways, and adore Revelstoke's simplicity and gentle nature. Life is easy, here in Canada, without complications of health insurance, figuring out taxes when I'm eventually earning money, stressing about getting a job and how I'm going to stay in Sydney, if I can stay in Sydney.
Then again, where do I want to be right now, if not right here? Yes, curled up in bed at my parents' house sounds blissful, but clearly one can't remain in cossetted down duvet cocoons forever. I guess I'm just a bit dismayed that, in general, I'm feeling a bit clueless about everything right now. Graduation is supposed to affirm how much you do know, not how much you don't know, right? I can follow intellectual conversations with the best of them, but I just don't feel critically engaged in any way. I spend more time thinking about how I'm going to decorate the apartment, probably.
Boarding has crept up on me; I better let this baby charge before hopping on that plane! Egads. Here's to turning over a new leaf, entering a different part of my life, learning new things and being reminded of old. Yes, things are gonna change, but I don't want them to stay the same forever, either. And so... I get on a plane and fly across the world.