fate is what we make of it
i have nothing to update about. i honestly dont know why im updating. i just got online to read peoples journals and i think i did something bad to someone i care about. not intentionally, but it happend. i shouldnt have allowed it to happen. anywho...we only have 14 days until schools out. and that including weekends....so excluding weekends, we only have 10 days. YAY! i want it to be summer already. i need to get my warped tour tickets. this years tour is gonna be awesome. im gonna go with my mom, marko, rene, and i think britt might tag along too. then were gonna go to sea world and six flags. yippee! lol...i need to get an oil change. lmao..my car makes this really scarey noise. i think its cuz im like 2000 miles over my last oil change. i dont really care though. lets see what else is new....*ponders* marko and i are back together. =D as of sunday..may 8. i was a bit hesitant to say yes, cuz i was thinking of lupe and such...and i came to the conclusion(in like 2 minutes) that marko is better for me. and i realized i was mainly attracted to lupe sexually, and i wasnt even sure if he was attracted to me at all. so needless to say, i said yes to marko. and i am happier than ive ever been..seriously. i think im gonna start taking him to like party with me and such. cuz i dont want to stop drinking and shit, but i know that like if hes not with me, ill end up doing some stupid shit again. and i think im in it for good this time. im gonna go take a nap now. lupe called me to go drink with him, but now isnt a good time since my mom already is suspicious of me drinking, and doing drugs. ill just wait that out for like a week or two. so yes...nap time <3
-im so sorry matt.
-im so sorry matt.