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I am so pissed off right now I could kill someone. This has been the worst week so far this semester, in so many ways, and I didn't even have any midterms. Its our last week on the water till the spring and it was supposed to be intense and fun and freezing and everything I love about rowing. But instead its been terribly stressful and sleepless and today just topped everything off.
And the week started off amazing. Monday morning was the 6k - we were all so trashed last weekend but I managed to pull a 2:06.4. That's un-fucking-believable. I was so proud of myself. Second best time on the women's team. And I was so excited about Head of the Fish in Saratoga Springs on Saturday. In the A boat with my three favorite girls and my favorite coxswain and my favorite boat. It was going to be the perfect week and the perfect final head race to finish it. But NO. It can't ever be perfect.
I've achieved a lot. I'm motivated and successful. I'm pretty happy about the direction my life is going in. I know I'm going to have a good life. I have values and morals and I'm a genuinely good person. I care about my family and friends and I will help someone in need.
That's why I love my team. Because most of the people on it share these qualities with me. We push ourselves in every aspect of our lives and we are all going to be successful. I need to be around people like that all the time. I need my friends to be people who make me want to be better, who push and motivate and challenge me. But in the real world, I have to deal with people who are just so FUCKING STUPID. People who are not motivated and uninteresting and have nothing to offer to this world. And I just can't deal with it.
I need to get away. Thanksgiving cannot come soon enough. I need the 02067 right now. I need my girls and I need my home.
And the week started off amazing. Monday morning was the 6k - we were all so trashed last weekend but I managed to pull a 2:06.4. That's un-fucking-believable. I was so proud of myself. Second best time on the women's team. And I was so excited about Head of the Fish in Saratoga Springs on Saturday. In the A boat with my three favorite girls and my favorite coxswain and my favorite boat. It was going to be the perfect week and the perfect final head race to finish it. But NO. It can't ever be perfect.
I've achieved a lot. I'm motivated and successful. I'm pretty happy about the direction my life is going in. I know I'm going to have a good life. I have values and morals and I'm a genuinely good person. I care about my family and friends and I will help someone in need.
That's why I love my team. Because most of the people on it share these qualities with me. We push ourselves in every aspect of our lives and we are all going to be successful. I need to be around people like that all the time. I need my friends to be people who make me want to be better, who push and motivate and challenge me. But in the real world, I have to deal with people who are just so FUCKING STUPID. People who are not motivated and uninteresting and have nothing to offer to this world. And I just can't deal with it.
I need to get away. Thanksgiving cannot come soon enough. I need the 02067 right now. I need my girls and I need my home.