underneath the bridge the tarp has sprung a leak
Watching Queer Eye for the Straight Guy makes me giddy and happy, and I literally feel like all of the world's problems can be fixed by the Fab Five. Like tonight. Sitting on the couch, giggling with my sister when they mocked George's Bon Jovi-esque hair. Nothing better.
But when it was over, I changed the channel to MTV2 and watched "Bare Witness: Nirvana Unplugged". And I think I cried five separate times.
I'm still not over it. Even after nine years, I can't get over the fact that Kurt is dead. I've cried more over his death than I have over anyone's. Even family members' deaths.
And god, whenever I watch footage of Nirvana Unplugged, I see how sad Kurt looks. I just want to give him a big hug and tell him everything is going to be okay. But I know that it wasn't going to be okay. Five months later, he committed suicide.
They closed the Unplugged show with "Where Did You Sleep Last Night". The camera holds close to Kurt's face through the last chorus of the song. And there's a moment, a small moment when he looks up and it's the most devastating expression. It only lasts for a split second, but it breaks my heart every time.
I'm just a big weepy mess right now. And I have to go make a Kurt icon.
But when it was over, I changed the channel to MTV2 and watched "Bare Witness: Nirvana Unplugged". And I think I cried five separate times.
I'm still not over it. Even after nine years, I can't get over the fact that Kurt is dead. I've cried more over his death than I have over anyone's. Even family members' deaths.
And god, whenever I watch footage of Nirvana Unplugged, I see how sad Kurt looks. I just want to give him a big hug and tell him everything is going to be okay. But I know that it wasn't going to be okay. Five months later, he committed suicide.
They closed the Unplugged show with "Where Did You Sleep Last Night". The camera holds close to Kurt's face through the last chorus of the song. And there's a moment, a small moment when he looks up and it's the most devastating expression. It only lasts for a split second, but it breaks my heart every time.
I'm just a big weepy mess right now. And I have to go make a Kurt icon.