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mmm....a day....my mother came to greensboro today!
Initially I went with her to check in to her super sketchy hotel...(she'll do better next time)
we went to eat, then-
to Aaron and Jon's recital.
...Wonderful, I love to listen to...
we proceed to mess around, then go-
to Lovers and Executioners (again?! yes, I know)
hilarious, with Kyle as Don Lope *slaps knee and giggles*
I'll start moving out tomorrow,
sending things home with my mother,
and my room becomes bare-
few exams ahead to stress about,
...next year will be different,
better?
I'll have learned-
have you ever thought up scenerios in your head?
Like bumping into someone famous, somewhere random like a gas station?
I do that all the time, like Howie Day,
hahaha, I would be so silly!
What about preparing real situations in your head?
like how you'll think of handling a confrontation before it happens?
How it would go, if you were in control of the entire conversation,
and if you could go ahead of think of the arguments you'll make,
you'd be so prepared.
then, you're faced with your chance
to make it better,
or call them out,
or find out the truth,
and you're frozen.
(tangent: I had a dream I stood beneath an orange sky with my sister standing by)
God what could you have said?!
Apologized for blowing them off, for being selfish, naiive, or saying to him "guys like you..." when you know damn well there aren't guys like him (you fuck up)
You could have looked them straight in the eye and told them they were an asshole to you, and said it so they'd get it, they'd understand that you weren't just saying for no reason.
What if you had told them that you adored them? Would it have been so bad to tell them the truth?
Or said you could kiss them right there wherever you were?
You could thank them for being around everytime you had to have someone to talk to about the random bullshit you think of.
Buuuut yeah...I guess you really couldn't-
there's always something keeping you from doing what you should.
g'night love
Morganna