womanhood

[evefading]

once in a great while i would like a little credit for everything. being a mom is a thankless job, and sadly so is being a wifey most of the time too. everything is just expected... not appreciated. i thought about this this morning and thought of my own mother and how many times i see myself in her now. i am so different than her as a person, but our hearts know eachother, and i see this when she looks at me with a glimpse of sadness in her eyes. it's a knowing, a realization that things have revealed to me without me asking for the revelation.

i also had a dream last night that i had breast cancer. i feel very antique today, not so much old, but just used, and polished over and over to try to keep my luster.