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[evathadiva]

wanting to give
and be met
with something
not everything
but something

not expecting much
but wishing I did
knowing I have a lot
but wanting more from those
who I shouldn't
expect
from

why do I need that
need them

wish I could just push off
their island
their lives
and forget
what they didn't
do

sometimes just filling in the blanks
filling in
the expectations
then
when I stop

what is left

do they even expect anything from me

sometimes

I just wonder