I HATE.......
*that i am stupid
*that i cant figure out what i mean about nething
*that i dont even know what i want nemore
*that i cant have it simple just for once
*that i cant relize how simple something is when it easy
*that i fuck up every good thing that happens to me
*that tomorrow woulda been 10 months
*that my room smells like ax
*that i cant take his pictures down
*that i miss him sooo much
*that i let myself love himm
*that all my passwords were ilovejamesdobransky
*that all my #1 speed dials call 1080
*that i cant sleep
*that i have school tomorrow
*that i had someting so perfect but i let it go
*that he loved me
*that i loved himm
*that im lost
*that i can tell everyone else what to do but when it comes to me i never know
*that all my friends moved
*that it will rain tomorrow
*that all my other friends graduated
*that no one understands me
*that im poor
*that i ended up im mahopac
*that my cousins are stupid
*that everyone i love leaves me
*that i expect everything to go wrong and everyone who loves me to leave me
*that that mentality gets in the way everytime im close to being happy
*that james is perfect but still i cant see it working
*that i cant run good without my inhaler
*that i cant have a dog
*that i cant sleep without a tynol pm
*that everyone seems to be moving on with out me
*that i cant talk to people
*that im always tired
*that sarah left me
*that i ruined my life
*that i cant drive
*that im sittin here bitchin to a friggin computer
*that everwood got boaring
*that everything got boaring
*that im alive when other people who deserve to be more arnt
*that innocence is lost at such a young age
*that love is so hard
*that my dad cant seem to work so we can have good food
i guess thats it and im sorry for ever hurting u james if i did cuz i really do love u alot more then ill ever admit hopefully someday it will repair itself and who knows mabye if were ment to be we will be. i need to go now cuz ive been crying for the last hours and it has drained me so to anyone who reads this goodnight and be happy with what u have cuz it might just end up gone one day and only then will you relize how much it means to u peace
*that i cant figure out what i mean about nething
*that i dont even know what i want nemore
*that i cant have it simple just for once
*that i cant relize how simple something is when it easy
*that i fuck up every good thing that happens to me
*that tomorrow woulda been 10 months
*that my room smells like ax
*that i cant take his pictures down
*that i miss him sooo much
*that i let myself love himm
*that all my passwords were ilovejamesdobransky
*that all my #1 speed dials call 1080
*that i cant sleep
*that i have school tomorrow
*that i had someting so perfect but i let it go
*that he loved me
*that i loved himm
*that im lost
*that i can tell everyone else what to do but when it comes to me i never know
*that all my friends moved
*that it will rain tomorrow
*that all my other friends graduated
*that no one understands me
*that im poor
*that i ended up im mahopac
*that my cousins are stupid
*that everyone i love leaves me
*that i expect everything to go wrong and everyone who loves me to leave me
*that that mentality gets in the way everytime im close to being happy
*that james is perfect but still i cant see it working
*that i cant run good without my inhaler
*that i cant have a dog
*that i cant sleep without a tynol pm
*that everyone seems to be moving on with out me
*that i cant talk to people
*that im always tired
*that sarah left me
*that i ruined my life
*that i cant drive
*that im sittin here bitchin to a friggin computer
*that everwood got boaring
*that everything got boaring
*that im alive when other people who deserve to be more arnt
*that innocence is lost at such a young age
*that love is so hard
*that my dad cant seem to work so we can have good food
i guess thats it and im sorry for ever hurting u james if i did cuz i really do love u alot more then ill ever admit hopefully someday it will repair itself and who knows mabye if were ment to be we will be. i need to go now cuz ive been crying for the last hours and it has drained me so to anyone who reads this goodnight and be happy with what u have cuz it might just end up gone one day and only then will you relize how much it means to u peace