Restless are we all untill true freedom is relized
Wow i havnt written in here for so long!!
Slept over catherines house last night it was ghetto. I stayed up till like 8 in the mornin im so beat. It was cool tho cuz i talked alot about everything and came to the conclusion that u cant have everything u want and thats that. U cant change it cuz thats the way it is. I dont know weather its a good thing or a badd thing but thats jsut the way things are.
so i decided im not letting other peoples opinions about how i should do things get in the way of doing them.
i also cant let my past get in the way of my future. I have to stop assuming that history will always repete itself cuz its holding me back from being happy now. its just so hard to let my guard down sometime cuz it feels like as soon as i do everythings jsut gonna fall apart, and thats the last thing i want right now. dont let urself get too attached cuz its gonna end up burnin ya in the end. attachment leads to reliability and reliability leads to letdowns. The only person u can count on is urself.
i cant believe this summer is over already it went by so amazingly fast. All in all it was an ok summer too. I dont want to go back to school and start a new everything. I want to go back to last year and have it continue on. I had all my friends and i liked all my classes and i was jsut really confortable with everythign and now it feels like im going back to nothing. Everthing in my life shifted and it feels like everyone jsut moved on and left me behind by myself. I hate it. I do got ash tho and hopefully we can go back to like it was back in the day. idk i guess all i can do is let it play out.
I am Mrs. Fertility. lol
Goin shoppin 2moro helll yea bitches!!! lol i hope i get good clothes and stuff.
james i miss u mucho
will rap like vililla ice for cash lol good times
well thats bout it for now gonna go pass out cuz im so tired
peace
Slept over catherines house last night it was ghetto. I stayed up till like 8 in the mornin im so beat. It was cool tho cuz i talked alot about everything and came to the conclusion that u cant have everything u want and thats that. U cant change it cuz thats the way it is. I dont know weather its a good thing or a badd thing but thats jsut the way things are.
so i decided im not letting other peoples opinions about how i should do things get in the way of doing them.
i also cant let my past get in the way of my future. I have to stop assuming that history will always repete itself cuz its holding me back from being happy now. its just so hard to let my guard down sometime cuz it feels like as soon as i do everythings jsut gonna fall apart, and thats the last thing i want right now. dont let urself get too attached cuz its gonna end up burnin ya in the end. attachment leads to reliability and reliability leads to letdowns. The only person u can count on is urself.
i cant believe this summer is over already it went by so amazingly fast. All in all it was an ok summer too. I dont want to go back to school and start a new everything. I want to go back to last year and have it continue on. I had all my friends and i liked all my classes and i was jsut really confortable with everythign and now it feels like im going back to nothing. Everthing in my life shifted and it feels like everyone jsut moved on and left me behind by myself. I hate it. I do got ash tho and hopefully we can go back to like it was back in the day. idk i guess all i can do is let it play out.
I am Mrs. Fertility. lol
Goin shoppin 2moro helll yea bitches!!! lol i hope i get good clothes and stuff.
james i miss u mucho
will rap like vililla ice for cash lol good times
well thats bout it for now gonna go pass out cuz im so tired
peace