retribution

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I will make it two fucking days without therapy.
I will not ring and beg to be seen earlier.
I can cope.
I can live with this hate.
Whatever this rage seems to be.
Since someone gave me a glimpse of what justice could be.
And the very long road it is.

PS; My desire to "check out early",
let the uselessness of life seep through me,
to give up,
to kill myself,
seems to have gone,
the day the police gave me a call.
Blind angry rage fills me one purpose,
one single minded determination,
I shall live
and I shall see justice to its end.
For every crime against me,
and every little girl you abused,
I will stand up in court,
god give me strength,
and put you in prison for a very long time.
people like you are the lowest of the low.
a criminal even in the world of criminals.
I hope whilst your in prison,
your life becomes a daily hell.
I hope your beaten every other day,
and your guards turn a blind eye.
I hope for even worse,
I hope your stripped of basic human dignity,
I hope your subject to every human perversion,
that happens whilst you rot in jail,
I hope your screams are ignored
as you are repeatedly raped,
by your fellow prisoners,
amongst whom you are clearly the worst of humankind.

And then I hope you fucking die.
I hope your death is brutal and painful,
slow and tortured.

I no longer believe your time with me
was opportunistic,
that you did not have an idea,
of the depth of your crimes,
I talk to your other victims,
and I see the deliberate careful manipulations,
the scheming long term plans,
so that we would do without hesitation,
whatever you wanted.
I cannot even remember,
all the horrible details.

So yes I hope you suffer
and even your death is painful,
and then you go to hell
and you burn to ashes again and again.
for all eternity
because that's where you deserve to be.

I hate you so fucking much,
you destroyed all of us.
you absolute fucking bastard.